juliakv1031
Jun 4, 2013, 01:20 AM
I completely trust my boyfriend, probably more than I've trust any previous boyfriend. He is my best friend and my family. We moved in together a few months ago, and I realize how jealous I feel inside. I feel distraught when he mentions his past. Even if he doesn't mention his ex girlfriend in a story during a period where he was with his ex, I imagine her there. I even imagine him and her laying in bed and cuddling the same way we do now, and it hurts a lot.
I also don't really like it when he speaks to other women, unless they are in a long-term relationship. I know it's my problem and I'm wrong, but I genuinely feel enraged by even knowing he would talk to another female or think any girl besides me could have enough value to him to even be considered a legitimate friend.
I love my boyfriend more than anything but sometimes I think about leaving him due to my constant violent mixture of emotions - love and heartbreak - the sort of pain I imagine I would get if he left. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I know he loves me and he has never, ever given me a reason to be suspicious of him.
We went to high school together but weren't really friends but five years later life brought us together 1,100 miles from the town we grew up in. In high school he was sort of a player but he was young and immature and he is infinitely a different, better man now. Since we've been together he's never hidden anything from me, been completely open about everything, and not lied.
I never snoop but he leaves his Facebook open on my computer or has me answer his phone or check his texts or whatever and that does comfort me as it lets me know he has nothing to hide. Nevertheless, the thought of his past girlfriends laying with him and doing private things with him haunts me, as well as the immature, cheating high school boy I used to know him as (even though I'm aware that's he is different now---we never dated in high school but we went to a small school and everyone knew everyone else's business).
Basically I am just having these obsessive thoughts and they are ruining me and making me lose my mind. Please help with advice and responses.
I also don't really like it when he speaks to other women, unless they are in a long-term relationship. I know it's my problem and I'm wrong, but I genuinely feel enraged by even knowing he would talk to another female or think any girl besides me could have enough value to him to even be considered a legitimate friend.
I love my boyfriend more than anything but sometimes I think about leaving him due to my constant violent mixture of emotions - love and heartbreak - the sort of pain I imagine I would get if he left. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I know he loves me and he has never, ever given me a reason to be suspicious of him.
We went to high school together but weren't really friends but five years later life brought us together 1,100 miles from the town we grew up in. In high school he was sort of a player but he was young and immature and he is infinitely a different, better man now. Since we've been together he's never hidden anything from me, been completely open about everything, and not lied.
I never snoop but he leaves his Facebook open on my computer or has me answer his phone or check his texts or whatever and that does comfort me as it lets me know he has nothing to hide. Nevertheless, the thought of his past girlfriends laying with him and doing private things with him haunts me, as well as the immature, cheating high school boy I used to know him as (even though I'm aware that's he is different now---we never dated in high school but we went to a small school and everyone knew everyone else's business).
Basically I am just having these obsessive thoughts and they are ruining me and making me lose my mind. Please help with advice and responses.