angleyez62
Mar 23, 2007, 01:14 PM
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year now. I recently told him I have anorexia to the full extent. This means I get overly moodie to the point where afterwards, when I'm calm, I'm astonished at myself cause I don't even know how I could be so tempered and emotional. He has been very supportive and ensuring that I eat to maintain a onstant mood as much as possible but as those who suffer from such a disorder, it is hard to maintain eating habits at all.
I am starting to feel like the biggest burden in his life as I put him through hell more than I would like too at all. It hurts me to hurt him so bad but I don' tknow exactly how to control myself even though I do try! I don't want to put him through it anymore as I'm sure he feels like a baby-sitter, telling me to calm down, eat, hold me, watch me.. you know! And I feel terrible and feel that it would be better to deal with this on my own. I do love him very much and I know he is willing to do all of it for me but my guilty conscious is starting to take over!
I am starting to feel like the biggest burden in his life as I put him through hell more than I would like too at all. It hurts me to hurt him so bad but I don' tknow exactly how to control myself even though I do try! I don't want to put him through it anymore as I'm sure he feels like a baby-sitter, telling me to calm down, eat, hold me, watch me.. you know! And I feel terrible and feel that it would be better to deal with this on my own. I do love him very much and I know he is willing to do all of it for me but my guilty conscious is starting to take over!