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angleyez62
Mar 23, 2007, 01:14 PM
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year now. I recently told him I have anorexia to the full extent. This means I get overly moodie to the point where afterwards, when I'm calm, I'm astonished at myself cause I don't even know how I could be so tempered and emotional. He has been very supportive and ensuring that I eat to maintain a onstant mood as much as possible but as those who suffer from such a disorder, it is hard to maintain eating habits at all.
I am starting to feel like the biggest burden in his life as I put him through hell more than I would like too at all. It hurts me to hurt him so bad but I don' tknow exactly how to control myself even though I do try! I don't want to put him through it anymore as I'm sure he feels like a baby-sitter, telling me to calm down, eat, hold me, watch me.. you know! And I feel terrible and feel that it would be better to deal with this on my own. I do love him very much and I know he is willing to do all of it for me but my guilty conscious is starting to take over!

talaniman
Mar 23, 2007, 01:20 PM
Stop with the guilt trips and heroics and let him support you through this hard time. If he didn't want to be there he would have been long gone so relax and get healthy.

Wildcat21
Mar 23, 2007, 01:25 PM
I hope you're under a physicians care as well... therapy would be important as well - usually this type of crisis is caused by other issues. Please - today - go seek some real professionals.