My 16-year-old daughter s at a hospital for 72 hours watch. This happened last year also when her school counselor found that she was cutting herself.

She told a counselor she does not feel that I love her and world should b better off without her.

I must confess that I used to hit her. Several years ago, I hit her when she stole things from my friend's son and lied to me. She said she stole it because I wouldn't buy anything she wants. I hit her again when she shoplifted for a same reason -- she stole it because I wouldn't buy it even she had asked me to telling her that we don't have extra money to buy thing that aren't a basic necessity.

I am divorced with no financial support from her father. Money was always tight. As much as I felt bad that I had o make her feel that we are financially too restrained and made herself feel miserable. But a feeling of guilt and be ashamed, I snapped and hit her.

I then hit her again a couple years ago when I found out she had been having a rather sexual conversation with a stranger she met online. It happened after so many discussion about those cyber predators I have explained her about. Feeling disgusted and betrayed with her self-careless act, I snapped and hit her again.

I hit her not too long after that, too when I founded out she was still communicating the monster online, sending him some photos showing her private. With a feeling of betrayal, I hit her.

Around that time, our relationship went downhill. Her grades started slipping --mostly due to missing assignments. I got frustrated and hit her again.

Around that time, she had started being very insecure and got panicked when I failed answering her call to y cell phone and that is when she started cutting herself to cope her fear of losing me.

We had some counselings. I made a promise that would never raise my hands at her.

It has been over a year and my promise has been kept. However, she claims that those memories in the past still haunts her and when it does she feels nobody care about her and just wants to disappear.

Will she ever regain her confidence and strength to live?

Hopefully, you both continue with counseling together and separately. The hospital should be able to refer you to low cost counseling options. If not, please ask for them. I raised my children alone, with no financial support from the father. Yes, times were very tough and my kids knew it, but we made the best of it. We found sales, learned to be frugal with our money, and we survived. Hopefully, you can find a way to look on the bright side of your situation, rather than dwelling on the past. Good luck and let us know that you found a good counselor.

Continue with the counseling together and alone. This is something a counselor can help you with.
I wish you both well.