Lollypopgirl
Apr 4, 2013, 08:07 AM
Okay so here I start but I want all of you to actually read this because I need advice.
I used to have different friends than the ones I have now. I had the greatest time with them. I just felt so happy until nearly in the middle of one of our years together one of them said that they were all talking behind my back spreading rumors and everything. So also at the beginning of the year I had met this amazing girl in tennis and she and I kind got to be friends. I was there with the best friend that told me about the rumors. When I found out about they were talking behind my back, I asked one of these girls that is sweet if I could sit with them at lunch, and in her group of friends was also the girl I had met in tennis. I became friends with them but I never thought I would have become best friends with them.
I thought my fight with the other girls would have ended and that I would have gotten back with them but I started to love the new people I hung out with. They made me smile all the time and I didn’t feel worthless after what happened at home since my parents hit me. I could trust them. I kept on thinking thank you god you brought happiness in my life.
I thought everything was going to be perfect but well there is also something else. So I hate my body but I have boobs and like they are big I admit. Because of that all the people started thinking I was a slut. But you know I just didn’t care what others said even if it hurt. I just cared what my new friends thought of me and I thought I had a connection with them until one of them started screaming at me saying that I was using all of them and apparently only one of my old friends had said that I was using them for popularity.
That ruined everything for a while. There were still a few that were nice to me because they wouldn’t care. They would only care about how I acted to them. The true me, not the "me" everyone would describe. At the end of everything, it turned out good. Until I found out that sometimes they still do talk behind my back. I have a feeling I am the most horrible person in the world, and I just wish I could change.
So the advice I need is how can I change myself? How could I make people see am not a slut? I’m not mean.
Thank you guys :)
I used to have different friends than the ones I have now. I had the greatest time with them. I just felt so happy until nearly in the middle of one of our years together one of them said that they were all talking behind my back spreading rumors and everything. So also at the beginning of the year I had met this amazing girl in tennis and she and I kind got to be friends. I was there with the best friend that told me about the rumors. When I found out about they were talking behind my back, I asked one of these girls that is sweet if I could sit with them at lunch, and in her group of friends was also the girl I had met in tennis. I became friends with them but I never thought I would have become best friends with them.
I thought my fight with the other girls would have ended and that I would have gotten back with them but I started to love the new people I hung out with. They made me smile all the time and I didn’t feel worthless after what happened at home since my parents hit me. I could trust them. I kept on thinking thank you god you brought happiness in my life.
I thought everything was going to be perfect but well there is also something else. So I hate my body but I have boobs and like they are big I admit. Because of that all the people started thinking I was a slut. But you know I just didn’t care what others said even if it hurt. I just cared what my new friends thought of me and I thought I had a connection with them until one of them started screaming at me saying that I was using all of them and apparently only one of my old friends had said that I was using them for popularity.
That ruined everything for a while. There were still a few that were nice to me because they wouldn’t care. They would only care about how I acted to them. The true me, not the "me" everyone would describe. At the end of everything, it turned out good. Until I found out that sometimes they still do talk behind my back. I have a feeling I am the most horrible person in the world, and I just wish I could change.
So the advice I need is how can I change myself? How could I make people see am not a slut? I’m not mean.
Thank you guys :)