I am 12 years old... I have been cutting since this January but it has been getting worse and I'm thinking that if I die no one would notice. Suicide is a clear option yet there is much to lose. I just want to know how to tell her before it gets too bad and I end up doing something stupid.

Walk up to her and show her your scars. Let us know what she does. I bet she will be very upset and get you the help you need.

Walk up to her and show her your scars. Let us know what she does. I bet she will be very upset and get you the help you need.

I thought of that but I think she will get mad at me.. I told her in February I stopped because I was scared of what she would do.

i thought of that but i think she will get mad at me.. i told her in february i stopped because i was scared of what she would do.
What do you think she's going to do?

Why do you think you can't tell her? If you were my daughter, I would hold you tight and get help for you.

Why do you think you can't tell her? If you were my daughter, I would hold you tight and get help for you.

Well I don't know. Also I'm a guy. I should have mentioned that

What do you think she's going to do?

I have absolutely no idea. I just think she may be mad

i have absolutely no idea. i just think she may be mad
Was she mad when you talked to her about it earlier this year? Mad mad or scared mad?

i have absolutely no idea. i just think she may be mad
She may be upset because she wants you to ask her for help. Is your dad around?

Was she mad when you talked to her about it earlier this year? Mad mad or scared mad?

She wasn't mad in February but she might be if I tell her because she'd know I lied when I said I stopped.

She may be upset because she wants you to ask her for help. Is your dad around?

I don't talk to my dad about things whatsoever. I mean I love him but.. . I don't know. I just don't speak to him

i don't talk to my dad about things whatsoever. i mean i love him but . . . idk. i just don't speak to him

Ok, go show your mom. I doubt she will be mad. Let us know what happens. Another choice is to tell your teacher. We are there to help, too.

she wasn't mad in february but she might be if i tell her because she'd know i lied when i said i stopped.
She will be sad and disappointed, not mad, but it might look like mad at first. You need her on your side to know about this so she can get help for you.

Ok, go show your mom. I doubt she will be mad. Let us know what happens. Another choice is to tell your teacher. We are there to help, too.

I'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. My heat shut off in my house so my brother and I had to go next door.

She will be sad and disappointed, not mad, but it might look like mad at first. You need her on your side to know about this so she can get help for you.

What would help mean?

i'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. my heat shut off in my house so my brother and i had to go next door.

Then you need to show her in the morning.

i'm at a neighbors and it's midnight. my heat shut off in my house so my brother and i had to go next door.
Will you be okay until morning? We'll be here to hold your hand.

Then you need to show her in the morning.

That's what I was thinking. >~<

Will you be okay until morning? We'll be here to hold your hand.

I'd like to talk.. I doubt I'll get any sleep in this house.. it's too hot and quiet

that's what i was thinking. >~<Good Good girl! What do you think causes you to cut?

Good Good girl! What do you think causes you to cut?

Guy** and I guess it's like a distraction. I blame myself so much it's like a way to take it out on myself

guy** and i guess it's like a distraction. i blame myself so much it's like a way to take it out on myself
Sorry about the girl comment. Too often it's girls who do this.

Why take it out on yourself? Are you failing yourself somehow?

Sorry about the girl comment. Too often it's girls who do this.

Why take it out on yourself? Are you failing yourself somehow?

It's fine (the girl comment)
And yes. I think that I could be better if I was just stronger but I'm never the strong one... I'm always disappointing others and myself with goals or things I just mess up somehow.

it's fine (the girl comment)
and yes. i think that i could be better if i was just stronger but i'm never the strong one... i'm always disappointing others and myself with goals or things i just mess up somehow.
Tell me one good thing about yourself.

Tell me one good thing about yourself.

Like.. that I like?

I guess... well.. I have nothing

like.. that i like?

i guess... well.. i have nothing
You like to write.

You like to write.

I do.. I always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b

i do..? i always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b

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i do..? i always sucked at writing stories.. they'd be too long with no plot b
You're a good writer here -- clear and good English and thoughtful.

You're a good writer here -- clear and good English and thoughtful.

Thanks I guess.

thanks i guess.
Art? Drawing? Making things?

Art? drawing? making things?

I'm horrible at art. I don't draw (horrible). Making things? Eh. I play music. The alto saxophone.

i'm horrible at art. i don't draw (horrible). making things? eh. i play music. the alto saxophone.
Ah, my husband played the alto sax in school band about a thousand years ago. Do you like playing it? Do you take lessons?

i'm horrible at art. i don't draw (horrible). making things? eh. i play music. the alto saxophone.

But even my best friend said I'm the worst in the school

Ah, my husband played the alto sax in school band about a thousand years ago. Do you like playing it? Do you take lessons?

I play it in school but people say I'm horrible and I suck at it.

i play it in school but people say i'm horrible and i suck at it.
Do YOU like to play it? Is there a school band?

Do YOU like to play it? Is there a school band?

Yeah. 6th period for about an hour.. I guess I like playing it. I quit keyboarding for it

yeah. 6th period for about an hour.. i guess i like playing it. i quit keyboarding for it
I had years of piano lessons. Do you have to replace the reeds now and then? (I always have wondered that.) Why did you switch?

I had years of piano lessons. Do you have to replace the reeds now and then? (I always have wondered that.) Why did you switch?

You have to use a different reed every day. And I quit keyboarding because the teacher verbally abused me. She said I would never have a job or a family and I hated the concept of typing I already type good I don't care if I have to look at the keyboard. What right does she have to tell me I am never going to have a life? Ugh.

you have to use a different reed every day. and i quit keyboarding because the teacher verbally abused me. she said i would never have a job or a family and i hated the concept of typing i already type good i don't care if i have to look at the keyboard. what right does she have to tell me i am never going to have a life? ugh.
Do you throw away the old reeds, or can you reuse them after cleaning them or something?

There must be something about piano teachers. Mine refused to let me improvise. I had to play the piece exactly as it was written with no variations. I HATED all the classical stuff he gave me to learn. I wanted to play fun stuff and goof around with it. At home when I practiced, I got the same message.

Do you throw away the old reeds, or can you reuse them after cleaning them or something?

There must be something about piano teachers. Mine refused to let me improvise. I had to play the piece exactly as it was written with no variations. I HATED all the classical stuff he gave me to learn. I wanted to play fun stuff and goof around with it. At home when I practiced, I got the same message.

If you take good care of the reeds and don't break/drop them they will last for yeard

if you take good care of the reeds and don't break/drop them they will last for yeard

Years**

if you take good care of the reeds and don't break/drop them they will last for years
Have you ever heard of Kenny G? He plays alto sax and has made a fortune doing it.

Have you ever heard of Kenny G? He plays alto sax and has made a fortune doing it.

I've heard OF him but I don't actually know anything about him

Have you ever heard of Kenny G? He plays alto sax and has made a fortune doing it.

Is it bad to be afraid of the dark?

i've heard OF him but i don't actually know anything about him
What kind of music do you like to listen to?

What kind of music do you like to listen to?

I like dark/emo music and also rock bands such as jimmy eat world, alkaline trio, kings of leon, and I guess new stuff.

And I love justin timberlake

What kind of music do you like to listen to?

I hate country though

Sadly, I am a cutter. I have tried to stop and succeeded for a maximum of a week. But today, the deepest out of hundreds of cuts in a few months bled for an hour, made me feel like I was going to vomit out whatever's life inside of me, yet I felt no pain whatsoever. It was about two centimeters deep, and it was about 12 hours ago and it has not even stung. My question is.. why doesn't it hurt when the other cuts were so much more painful?

http://www.google.ca/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=cab+cutting+cause+nerve+damage&source=web&cd=3&cad=rja&ved=0CE8QFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Forthoinfo.aaos.org%2Ftopic.cfm%3F topic%3DA00016&ei=ZDJRUbSFO6vMigLOv4HoDg&usg=AFQjCNGkfLMOTwuImSxjp5A8H6rEHp7mKA

Sounds like you have nerve damage from cutting. See the above link for more information.

Sorry, the link doesn't seem to want to give me a quick link. Just copy the above, paste, and the site will come up.

i hate country though
Me too!

Are you in the US?

http://www.google.ca/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=cab+cutting+cause+nerve+damage&source=web&cd=3&cad=rja&ved=0CE8QFjAC&url=http%3A%2F%2Forthoinfo.aaos.org%2Ftopic.cfm%3F topic%3DA00016&ei=ZDJRUbSFO6vMigLOv4HoDg&usg=AFQjCNGkfLMOTwuImSxjp5A8H6rEHp7mKA


Sounds like you have nerve damage from cutting. See the above link for more information.

Sorry, the link doesn't seem to want to give me a quick link. Just copy the above, paste, and the site will come up.

What's going to happen?

what's going to happen?

There's no way for me to tell you. I'm not a doctor, I don't know how deeply you cut, I can't even say for sure that it's nerve damage, it just sounds like that's what's happened. If it is, it will depend on how badly the nerve has been damaged. You may need surgery, you may need therapy, or there may be no way to repair the damage. Either way, you need to see a doctor immediately.

Me too!

Are you in the US?

Yeah! North Carolina

There's no way for me to tell you. I'm not a doctor, I don't know how deeply you cut, I can't even say for sure that it's nerve damage, it just sounds like that's what's happened. If it is, it will depend on how badly the nerve has been damaged. You may need surgery, you may need therapy, or there may be no way to repair the damage. Either way, you need to see a doctor immediately.

Does how deep it is matter in the situation?

yeah! North Carolina
When I was about your age, I lived in Taylorsville. Ever hear of it? I was born in Kinston. I loved to go to the mountains, to Grandfather Mountain and walk on the swinging bridge.

does how deep it is matter in the situation?

It seems to just have tipped the skin.

When I was about your age, I lived in Taylorsville. Ever hear of it? I was born in Kinston. I loved to go to the mountains, to Grandfather Mountain and walk on the swinging bridge.

Haha! I've been there! I have a.. pocketknife from there...


But I am afraid of heights so I hated the bridge!

does how deep it is matter in the situation?

Not really. Nerves can be cut with shallow wounds too.

The fact that you're not feeling any pain from the cut is the concern here. You need to see a doctor. If this is nerve damage, and it is treatable, the sooner a doctor sees it, the better your chances of full recovery. Did you read the link I posted?

haha! i've been there! i have a..pocketknife from there....

but i am afraid of heights so i hated the bridge!
I'm afraid of heights too, and then it would sway slightly and get scary, like we were all going to fall and be killed. I'd walk in the middle so I couldn't see the gorge below.

Not really. Nerves can be cut with shallow wounds too.

The fact that you're not feeling any pain from the cut is the concern here. You need to see a doctor. If this is nerve damage, and it is treatable, the sooner a doctor sees it, the better your chances of full recovery. Did you read the link I posted?

Yeah. It doesn't hurt at all.. I mean if I touch it it stings a little but by itself I can't even tell it's there

it seems to just have tipped the skin.

That's not what you said when you posted the question.


but today, the deepest out of hundreds of cuts in a few months bled for an hour, made me feel like I was going to vomit out whatever's life inside of me, yet I felt no pain whatsoever. It was about two centimeters deep,

Either it's the deepest of hundreds of cuts, two centimeters deep, or it just tipped the skin. Which is it?

yeah. it doesn't hurt at all.. i mean if i touch it it stings a little but by itself i can't even tell it's there

Actually it doesn't sting whatsoever

That's not what you said when you posted the question.



Either it's the deepest of hundreds of cuts, two centimeters deep, or it just tipped the skin. Which is it?

My cuts normally aren't that deep, it tipped the skin.. I have bad sight anyway.. but it really did bleed for a long time

You'll have to see your doctor, which means you have to tell mom that you cut yourself, that it's either a deep cut, or just a minor one (you'll have to decide which one), that you're not feeling any pain from the cut and you feel you may have cut a nerve.

There's really nothing anyone on this site can do about it. You need to see a doctor.

Good luck.

You'll have to see your doctor, which means you have to tell mom that you cut yourself, that it's either a deep cut, or just a minor one (you'll have to decide which one), that you're not feeling any pain from the cut and you feel you may have cut a nerve.

There's really nothing anyone on this site can do about it. You need to see a doctor.

Good luck.

Ugh. Thanks.

Fml.

I'm afraid of heights too, and then it would sway slightly and get scary, like we were all going to fall and be killed. I'd walk in the middle so I couldn't see the gorge below.

Did you read the other things. Nerve injuries? Ughh idek what that is.

did you read the other things. nerve injuries? ughh idek what that is.
Yes. I read that too. I'm not a doctor, plus we can't see your wound. Where is the cut exactly?

Yes. I read that too. I'm not a doctor, plus we can't see your wound. Where is the cut exactly?

My right arm, about three inches up from the middle of the part where my hand and wrist meet.

Does that make sense?

my right arm, about three inches up from the middle of the part where my hand and wrist meet.

does that make sense?

And the actual cut is about two inches long

my right arm, about three inches up from the middle of the part where my hand and wrist meet.
On the inside/underside part or the outside part of your arm? Across or the long way?

On the inside/underside part or the outside part of your arm? Across or the long way?

It's on the side with fingernails and it is long side like a hot dog on my arm.. sort of. Just not that long

it's on the side with fingernails and it is long side like a hot dog on my arm.. sort of. just not that long
Is it still bleeding or oozing blood? Can you wiggle your fingers? Close your hand?

Is it still bleeding or oozing blood? Can you wiggle your fingers? Close your hand?

No more bleeding and I can do those.

no more bleeding and i can do those.
That's good, but you will still tell your mom in the morning? I wonder if you need a few stitches.

That's good, but you will still tell your mom in the morning? I wonder if you need a few stitches.

Why would I need stitches..

why would i need stitches..?
Depends on how deep it is. You don't want it to heal badly and with a wide scar.

Depends on how deep it is. You don't want it to heal badly and with a wide scar.

It's not that deep. I guess it's deep for me because I don't ever cut deep at all

it's not that deep. i guess it's deep for me because i don't ever cut deep at all
Gently touch around it. How does that feel? Does the skin go white when you touch?

Gently touch around it. How does that feel? Does the skin go white when you touch?

It feels stiff. But no it doesn't go white

it feels stiff. but no it doesn't go white

Actually that was just the way my arm was tilting.. it actually just feels normal

Is it still bleeding or oozing blood? Can you wiggle your fingers? Close your hand?

Just want to point out, I have permanent nerve damage in my left arm, I have for over 17 years now. I have barely any feeling in my arm at all. It feels like my arm is constantly asleep. I can use my hand just fine, I'm typing with it right now. I can lift things, I can wiggle my fingers, close my hand, and unless I told you about the nerve damage, you'd never know.

It's painful, especially when the weather changes, and the nerve is compressed even more (my damage is from a car accident, and my collar bone literally slipped and is resting on my upper most rib. The nerve between the two is constantly being compressed. When the weather changes (which it is now) the muscles swell and compress the nerve even more. So I feel pain all the time, even though I can't really feel my arm. It's a very strange unique pain, and not at all fun.

Nerve damage is not something that can be diagnosed online. Being able to wiggle your fingers, or close your hand, doesn't mean that damage hasn't been done. The fact that she feels no pain from this cut is a big red flag in my opinion. I really can't stress enough that if there is no pain from this cut, and the cut is as deep and long as she says, a doctor really needs to take a look a this.

I'm not saying it is nerve damage, as I can't give that diagnosis, I'm not a doctor, and not even a doctor could diagnose online. But, if it were me, I'd get it checked asap.

actually that was just the way my arm was tilting.. it actually just feels normal

Like normal skin

it feels stiff. but no it doesn't go white
One of my rescued cats had clawed me when we first brought him into the house. I ended up with an infection in my arm from the germs that got inside. That's another good reason for a doctor to check your cut, in case you need antibiotics.

Just want to point out, I have permanent nerve damage in my left arm, I have for over 17 years now. I have barely any feeling in my arm at all. It feels like my arm is constantly asleep. I can use my hand just fine, I'm typing with it right now. I can lift things, I can wiggle my fingers, close my hand, and unless I told you about the nerve damage, you'd never know.

It's painful, especially when the weather changes, and the nerve is compressed even more (my damage is from a car accident, and my collar bone literally slipped and is resting on my upper most rib. The nerve between the two is constantly being compressed. When the weather changes (which it is now) the muscles swell and compress the nerve even more. So I feel pain all the time, even though I can't really feel my arm. It's a very strange very unique pain, and not at all fun.

Nerve damage is not something that can be diagnosed online. Being able to wiggle your fingers, or close your hand, doesn't mean that damage hasn't been done. The fact that she feels no pain from this cut is a big red flag in my opinion. I really can't stress enough that if there is no pain from this cut, and the cut is as deep and long as she says, a doctor really needs to take a look a this.

I'm not saying it is nerve damage, as I can't give that diagnosis, I'm not a doctor, and not even a doctor could diagnose online. But, if it were me, I'd get it checked asap.

Can I post a picture of it on a secret Instagram and you can see it? I'll send the link to both of you. Again though I am a male.

One of my rescued cats had clawed me when we first brought him into the house. I ended up with an infection in my arm from the germs that got inside. That's another good reason for a doctor to check your cut, in case you need antibiotics.

I see. I showered literally right after the cut.. does that change anything too?

i see. i showered literally right after the cut.. does that change anything too?
Probably would have been too late -- again depending on how deep the knife (and germs) went. (It wasn't the Grandfather Mountain knife, was it?)

can i post a picture of it on a secret Instagram and you can see it? i'll send the link to both of you. again though i am a male.

A picture won't help. Like I said, not even a doctor can diagnose online, and I'm not a doctor. Seeing a picture of it really won't help at all. Only a doctor can determine if you've caused serious damage. I can't stress that enough. You really, really, really need to see a doctor about this.

Probably would have been too late -- again depending on how deep the knife (and germs) went. (It wasn't the Grandfather Mountain knife, was it?)

It was a pencil sharpener razor

A picture won't help. Like I said, not even a doctor can diagnose online, and I'm not a doctor. Seeing a picture of it really won't help at all. Only a doctor can determine if you've caused serious damage. I can't stress that enough. You really, really, really need to see a doctor about this.

Well would it change anything just to see it?

http://instagram.com/p/XT3SJxL-am/ you don't have to look but again. You can.

well would it change anything just to see it?

Photo by sighsandknives &bull; Instagram (http://instagram.com/p/XT3SJxL-am/) you don't have to look but again. you can.

It's looking a bit swollen to me. But that may just be the picture angle.

Really kiddo, please go to a doctor, and also tell your mom about your cutting. I'm a mom, I have a 14 year old son and a 10 year old daughter. If they were going through what you're going through I'd want to know. Your mom can't help you if she doesn't know what's going on.

I'm going to bed now because it's getting late. Kiddo, I really hope you take my advice and go to a doctor about this. Can you promise me to think about it?

I'm going to bed now because it's getting late. Kiddo, I really hope you take my advice and go to a doctor about this. Can you promise me to think about it?

Yes I can. But it's 2:30am here so I have to tell her later

yes i can. but it's 2:30am here so i have to tell her later
Will you be okay now? You need to sleep too. You're on spring break?

Will you be okay now? You need to sleep too. You're on spring break?

I guess.. it's still very hot in this house. And sort of. I'm tracked out. But yes I'm out of school

i guess.. it's still very hot in this house. and sort of. i'm tracked out. but yes i'm out of school
It's 1:30 here in Chicagoland, where I live now. Will you be my Tar Heel buddy? We can talk more about NC in the future.

It's 1:30 here in Chicagoland, where I live now. Will you be my Tar Heel buddy? We can talk more about NC in the future.

Okay (:

okay (:
I'm glad. We'll talk more after we both get some sleep. Good night, and stay in touch. Okay?

I'm glad. We'll talk more after we both get some sleep. Good night, and stay in touch. Okay?

Okay. (: good night.