Im missing my ex terribly! He wants to even get back! Plsssssssss advice how to hold back ;(

So what is the problem? -- if he wants to get back together and so do you.

He abuses me. I got back to him 7 times before! How many more times do I have to give him another chance and take oain and disappointment again!

he abuses me. i got back to him 7 times before! how many more times do i hav to give him another chance and take oain and disappointment again!
You do NOT have to give him another chance! Move away and into your own happy future.

Yea that's what the problem is! Just too exhausted and tired. Its been 2 months. No improvement.

yea thats what the problem is! just too exhausted and tired. its been 2 months. No improvement.
No improvement in what?

My misery. I cry like nuts. Never wanted it to end. I did every possible thing! Never asked anything in return.

I get suicidal thoughts and want to harm myself! Sometimes when I look down from the height, I lose control. I feel like I'll jump down from there if I don't move away from it

So stop being hysterical and self abusive. Take control of your emotions and take back your power.