I wish this could be a positive question but it is not.

I am a 20 year female with no money or health insurance. Nor do my parents to afford counseling.

I may be suffering from mild panic attacks, depression, and social anxiety. I also have very low confidence, self-esteem issues, and feelings of worthlessness. I am always angry at myself.

I can't look in the mirror without breaking down and crying.

My voice wavers as if I'm going to cry( which I am if don't hold it back)every-time I have to talk to someone.

I dread leaving the house. I have no friends. I can't leave the house anymore because I have no where to go. I have no money to go anywhere.

No one will hire me because I don't have confidence they want. I get extremely anxious talking to HR not only because I have to lie to get one, I can't seem to answer any question confidently without stuttering or crying.

I don't have any clothes to fit me. I got too fat for everything when I gained 100 pounds over the years.

I have been suffering from everything ever since I was 16.

I'm not suicidal yet. I'm not that brave.

I eat and sleep away the emptiness and loneliness I feel.

Anyone know where I can get help for this in Milwaukee, WI?

Yes. Go to a hospital ER to connect with a social worker. Call the county human services department and ask for a counselor. Or contact Catholic Charities or Lutheran Social Services to see if there is someone to help in your area. Or check with the UW campus near you for out-patient services. Or check with area priests and ministers who probably do counseling. Or call the reference desk at your local public library to ask for their input on who can help you.

Let me know how it's going.

Yes. Go to a hospital ER to connect with a social worker. Call the county human services department and ask for a counselor. Or contact Catholic Charities or Lutheran Social Services to see if there is someone to help in your area. Or check with the UW campus near you for out-patient services. Or check with area priests and ministers who probably do counseling. Or call the reference desk at your local public library to ask for their input on who can help you.

Let me know how it's going.

I think I am going to scare myself away from not going.

I'm nervous. What should I say?

I think I am going to scare myself away from not going.

I'm nervous. What should I say?
I'm not nervous at all! :)

*ring ring ring*

Hello, this is the county human resources office. How can I help you?

(Now you talk.)

Uhh.. don't know what to say seriously..
Umm.. I think I might be depressed.. do you uhh um no where I can get help or something?

I don't know what I am going to say.

uhh..don't know what to say seriously..
umm..i think I might be depressed..do you uhh um no where I can get help or something?

I dont know what I am going to say.
I gave you a list of possibilities to call. All would be low cost or free.

I am going to sit right here until you say something to me in answer to my "voice" on the phone.

I gave you a list of possibilities to call. All would be low cost or free.

I am going to sit right here until you say something to me in answer to my "voice" on the phone.

That was it I'm sorry. I forgot to put it in the voice thingy.

I can sit here and say I'm going to call but then I'm just going to do that below.

I'm going to pick up the phone..start panicking for about 20 minutes then dial the numbers stare for about 5; hover over the call button then quickly press end.

How about calling this number --

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

It's suicide prevention and also just talking and connecting to a counselor in your area. You will have to press 2 (I think) for English and wait a minute or two.

How about calling this number --

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

It's suicide prevention and also just talking and connecting to a counselor in your area. You will have to press 2 (I think) for English and wait a minute or two.

I'm not on the verge of killing, won't I be just wasting their time? While I'm calling someone else could be trying to connect and when they couldn't went and kill them self all because of me wasting a line. Couldn't do that to someone.

It's really not fair.

mental illness runs in my father's side of the family and it seems like I'm the one who was most vulnerable to it.

none of my sisters have problems with depression and anxiety.

not only that I'm the only one who is the fatest and ugliest.

my older sister is fat too but she carries it so well she looks like I star.

I dislike being around them they all so pretty and confident I don't know what happen to me


It makes me miserable everyday.

They always ask me why am I so negative, why I only wear sweat pants, why I never go anywhere, why I don't have a boyfriend, why I always wear only sweats or shirts 3x big then needed.

Then wonder why.. I can't tell them.

I'm not on the verge of killing, won't I be just wasting their time? While I'm calling someone else could be trying to connect and when they couldn't went and kill them self all because of me wasting a line. couldn't do that to someone.
You are soooooooooo funny!! Talk about excuses!!

Then wonder why.. i can't tell them.
Can't tell them what?

Don't laugh those excuses has severed me over over the years

And I can't tell them I need help. That I have issues
That I am jealous of them thatmajoirty of the time I hate myself, my looks, my personailty
That most of the time I just want someone to go somewhere with me to the park, go jog outside
Anything.. just for a little while. Stuff like that

I don't know

So let's get started getting this fixed.

By calling huh? I'm not a big brave dog wondergirl I can't call yet,
Going in person is something I can prefer to do.. can't hide anywhere heh

by calling huh? I'm not a big brave dog wondergirl I can't call yet,
going in person is something I can prefer to do..can't hide anywhere heh
So you will go in person to a counselor for an appointment, but refuse to call first?

You want me to make an appointment for you?

So you will go in person to a counselor for an appointment, but refuse to call first?

You want me to make an appointment for you?

Ouch.. refuse is such a harsh word more like... respectively decline.

Umm, no you do not need to make an appointment. The little pride I have won't let you even though that would be nice but I can't let you do that tis wrong and ugh..

ouch.. refuse is such a harsh word more like...respectively decline.

umm, no you do not need to make an appointment. The little pride I have wont let you even though that would be nice but i can't let you do that tis wrong and ugh..
SO

You want help because you know there is a problem

BUT

You won't call or go somewhere for help

NOR

Will you let me find help for you.

NOW WHAT?

I'll be waiting for you to show up in the morning. Don't go outside -- we've had a bit of snow. It's very pretty, though.

SO

you want help because you know there is a problem

BUT

you won't call or go somewhere for help

NOR

will you let me find help for you.

NOW WHAT?

I'm stupid OK. I don't understand my logic either >.<

I'll be waiting for you to show up in the morning. Don't go outside -- we've had a bit of snow. It's very pretty, though.

I just looked outside now dang snow everywhere. I isn't going nowhere.

I found a place

The Access Clinic in Milwaukee (414-257-7665)

I'd probably be fine with some mild anxiety medicine or something..

The clinic closes at 4 and it says I should be there before 2.

I'm debating whether I should go or not. :/

All this is mostly comes from not being when I lost my part-time job; now no one will hire me with my mood being like this. And the stigma of being long- term unemployed is worse then a prisoner out of jail to these employeers. :/

Meds will iron out the wrinkles. Then things will be smoothed out enough that counseling and job coaching will work. I'm here cheering for you! (and the roads are clear now) and will help however I can!

***ADDED*** I just looked up that clinic (you're very resourceful) -- I'm all for it, so GO!!

So what happened??

So what happened?????

Well you see.. what had happen was.. that I had uhh.. went there right and it was closed and uhh... they told me to come back tomorrow and uhh,,

Crap, I didn't go.. I wasn't scared I just didn't think I was uhh.. ready right now.. and uhh.. nothing I had to go babysit..

Well you see..what had happen was.. that I had uhh.. went there right and it was closed and uhh... they told me to come back tomorrow and uhh,,,,

crap, I didn't go..i wasn't scared I just didn't think I was uhh.. ready right now..and uhh..nothing I had to go babysit..
Who did you babysit?

I am embarrassed... highly embarrassed..

Who did you babysit?

My sister kids, since I stay inside all day she took it upon herself to leave me with them. Everyone else has lives so I'm alone.

My sister kids, since I stay inside all day she took it upon herself to leave me with them. Everyone else has lives so i'm alone.
How many and how old?

How many and how old?

Twins two boys both ages 2.

I'm going to have to try on Monday..

The only reason I don't go is that I didn't seem depressed enough I don't have a reason to go y'know?

I wrote that above because I was upset I don't know if it is really me that why I not go..

I do have anxiety problems but its not that serious...

I do have anxiety problems but its not that serious...
Um, you have no job, no life, you live inside your house 24/7, you say you are too fat and clothes don't fit right, you lie to me, so you are just fine?

Talk to me. I'm waiting.

Yes, yes that all true. I'm just an unemployed, no life having, never leave the house, to big for my clothes over eating buffoon.

I lie to make my life seem better. I lie to someone I care about because I can't handle telling that person the truth but he is waaaaay to good for me. And that hurts the most.

Not only that I'm extremely stupid and always confused.

And I won't get help or do anything because I secretly like not doing anything.
I fantasize of getting away from here; being the perfect person and we get married and live happily ever after
But I know its never going to happen so I really don't care..

I'm just a-ok/

Yes, yes that all true. I'm just an unemployed, no life havin, never leave the house, to big for my clothes over eating buffoon.
And I figured out who you are.

I thought you liked me.

And I figured out who you are.

I thought you liked me.

I do.

I'm just constantly upset and when I'm upset I do stupid things like this

I'm just constantly upset and when I'm upset I do stupid things like this
Well, you and I are going to get some things accomplished starting Monday, right? You have the weekend to rest up.

Well, you and I are going to get some things accomplished starting Monday, right? You have the weekend to rest up.

Ok, just help with this.

What should I do now since I'm waitng?
What the heck should I be dong now? I don't know and it's killing me.

Did you get your resume in good shape?

Make a list (neatly printed, on paper) of everything that is wrong with you.

Did you get your resume in good shape?

Make a list (neatly printed, on paper) of everything that is wrong with you.

Yes and No. I have everything but when I also asked to be critiqued they said it sucked and needed more details accomplishments and stuff.

I can't print anything yet no printers in the house I can use but I'll save it on word doc.

Yes and No. I have everything but when I also asked to be critiqued they said it sucked and needed more details accomplishments and stuff.
It did not suck. If you used the one I gave you, it is perfect once you added your personal info. They are crazy!! I've been helping people with resumes since 1985 and have taught seminars on it.

I can't print anything yet no printers in the house I can use but I'll save it on word doc.
I meant, like, the old-fashioned way, with a pen and paper, even lined notebook paper.

It did not suck. If you used the one I gave you, it is perfect once you added your personal info. They are crazy!!!!! I've been helping people with resumes since 1985 and have taught seminars on it.

I meant, like, the old-fashioned way, with a pen and paper, even lined notebook paper.
Hey I don't know. That's what they told me.
Said I needed more accomplishments and stuff and that they don't know what I wanted to do, childcare, welding (because of the robotics stuff or computers) and also to make up some better stufff.. forgot.

Speaking of resume.. with online applications how should I fill them out?
I see some I can do on Craigslist but they all ask for relevant experience. I send it to them I hear nothing. Also with online applications do I feel out n/a for employment history even though I do have 1 week of retail experience lmao.

Oh.. I'll do that. And when I'm done what then?

Hey I don't know. That's what they told me.
I should call them. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Said I needed more accomplishments and stuff and that they don't know what I wanted to do, childcare, welding (because of the robotics stuff or computers) and also to make up some better stufff.. forgot.
But you have virtually NO experience, so that is what they are supposed to be helping you figure out, what do you want to do. I may have to move up to Milwaukee and shake up that city and their social services!! They should give you an interest test and maybe the Myers-Brigg test.

Speaking of resume.. with online applications how should I fill them out?
I see some I can do on Craigslist but they all ask for relevant experience.
We really need to find an entry-level job for you. Let me think.

Why didn't you tell me right away who you are and make me have to figure it out?

I should call them. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

But you have virtually NO experience, so that is what they are supposed to be helping you figure out, what do you want to do. I may have to move up to Milwaukee and shake up that city and their social services!!!! They should give you an interest test and maybe the Myers-Brigg test.

We really need to find an entry-level job for you. Lemme think.

Haha that's why I like you.

I tried some temp services that I called almost everyday for anything they never had anything for me because I put down no experience. I went to one that works with small warehouse projects you need 6 months warehouse experience before you can even apply. -.-

I take online personality test ISFP 95% of the time comes up the rest of the 5% is INFP. So I hope that helps.

I've taken the Holland Codes online personality tests it comes of realistic (doer), investigative(thinker) than artistic ( my top 3).

Why didn't you tell me right away who you are and make me have to figure it out?

I'm sorry. I didn't mean too.

I don't know why. I've always done this. It feels safer. I can become someone else with a problem... I don't know.

You know by now you are safe with me. :)

Let me come up with a list of entry-level jobs I think you could handle. I'll report back tomorrow.

I believe this was all discussed here. https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/job-hunting/how-can-get-job-nothing-put-resume-poor-interviewing-skills-725453-29.html

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