I don't know how to start this off so I just guess I'll give you background information, Though its long for the whole story.
My parents have been splinted up a while after I was born, I was taken by my mom, she remarried to my dad who isn't blood related to me. My biological father still gets to see me and take me for summers. The upcoming summer he will be remarrying.
I'm 15 years old and sometimes I hate my father but cry for him all the time, pretty much every night, when j do get to see him, he's usually busy at work or tired. He doesn't call often and we don't have much of a bond. When j was little I used to scream at the smallest things, it would usually be directed at him. I would take my grandmas dog and pretend they are beauty animals in need of treatment, this usually end up cut pieces hair off the dog and

It's pretty common to crave the love of the parent who you don't see much, even if the bond isn't there. You had a less than ideal life, like most of us, and sure, you end up with problems . Calling it mental illness isn't really meaningful unless you can't function day to day. Do you have a bond with your step father? How is your relationship with your mother?