I don't remember much of my childhood, most of it is blocked out. I have a feeling that I was sexually abused as a child, for some reason I feel very uncomfortable around my father, brother and cousins. I do recall a few panic attacks as a child. I did experience sexual activity with a younger cousin and remember that but I can relate that to normal childhood behavior. I also remembering vaguely a time when I was playing with a friend and we went into my closet and touched each other. As a teenager I was very sexually active and each relationship I was in, I felt the need to be in control. Once the guy was crazy about me and gave me all I wanted from him I was done with him. Could this be an indication of why I have Bipolar and trust issues? Thank you

I also remember being embaressed and feeling uncomfortable when seeing a sex scene in a movie. I was 25 years old before I could call myself a woman, I always referred to myself as being a girl or female

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Here is info on bipolar disorder.