softcheek66
Jan 16, 2013, 01:08 PM
My boyfriend spends all his time online trying to find women and now even men who would sleep with me. He wants me to sleep with other women on my own and watch strange men having sex with me. While he says he would not want to push me he never lets off the subject and brings it up several times a day as it is his ultimate fantasy. I told him I have no desire for other people as I love him and only want to have sex with him. But he actually chats to women online and sends out my pictures to them all in order to get them to sleep with me. I had one experience which he had set up with a woman and I did not enjoy it. Now I am even more reluctant. But he said this woman was an idiot and I should try again. He emphasizes that he won't push me into it but he talks to women online every day and spends hours trying to find them. They send evenexplicit pictures of their genitals to him while he is pretending to be me and he blows them up to look at every detail on them. He would like me to sleep with strange men too although he is more careful about that fantasy. He would also like me to go dogging with him. I am not sure I am ready for any of this. It makes me feel less desirable to him. Especially as he said I should lose some weight, about 30 lbs, to look better so women would be more readily prepared to sleep with me.I am a size 12 now, so not super slim but hardly obese. I find that very hurtful. He says I am fat but he love me and he loves my big belly. I do have a high sex drive but I am totally focused on him and totally in love with him. His wishes make me feel insecure in our relationship. I told him all this but he is insisting it is the right thing for me and he wants me to have a fulfilled sex life. He cannot bring me to orgasm by penetration alone and has never tried it any other way, assuming it would not make any difference whether he stimulated me manually/orally for two minutes or for thirty. AFter the one encounter with another woman we had sex 12 times in 24 hrs, all ended with him climaxing. He claimed it turned him on so much that he peaked sexually at 46 yrs old and now he wants that kick again. I love him so much but I now get suspicious. Is he using me?? How can he claim to love me? Please help.