Im so depressed and can't understand why?I'm 28 male getting married in 5 months.as of late all I want to do is go out and drink and take drugs and I've never been like this before.Ive cheated on my fiancée several times when I'm off my face and I hate the person I've become.I was out on new years eve and left my fiancée and went to a party didn't return home until the next night totally out of my head.last night I told my fiancée everything I've done and how I feel I get so depressed sometimes I don't want to go on.I hate what I'm doing to her and my family.there is days I'm happy and days I just want to beat my head against the wall please help

Drugs and alcohol can make you depressed. They can also make you do stupid things, but you have realized that already. Maybe you should think about getting yourself together before you marry this girl and bring her down with you. If you love her, she doesn't deserve the you you are today. Get your life together and then win her back.

Thanks for the advice I've been with this girl for 14 yrs I love her 2 bits but can't understand were the depression came from only starting doing this over a year ago I go out and do this 2 kill the pain

thanks for the advice ive been with this girl for 14 yrs i love her 2 bits but can't understand were the depression came from only starting doing this over a year ago i go out and do this 2 kill the pain

Me thinks you are doing the opposite. Go online and read about drugs, alcohol, and depression. Someone much smarter than me should be typing this, but they can trigger depression. So whereas you think you are killing the pain, you are just adding to it.