I've hurt two people I really really care about. My love who's always done his best to make me happy and my friend whom I've led on. My love makes me happy and I keep looking to see what's wrong with our relationship to compel me to look at someone else and there's nothing wrong with him. All I know is that it's me that's lacking something. When he gets angry with me it's because I know and admit that I was in the wrong. But this time, I've just disappointed him so much and even got my friend involved. Neither of them deserved to be hurt like this. My friend was a good boyfriend for awhile.

I probably shouldn't have even agreed in the first place since I already have my love, but he was just so sincere and would not let up with the sweetness. He understands that my heart already belongs to someone and said that he'll wait as long as it takes for me to love him back, but I just could not do it. I couldn't handle it anymore. Cheating on my love, and hurting a good friend. It had to end.

I let my friend go and things are a mess. He's gotten himself hurt that he's landed in the hospital several times. My love wouldn't speak to me and I don't know if this means were over or not. Waiting for him to speak to me is so painful. I wake up each day hoping that he's at least replied to my text. I worry that he might have gotten himself hurt too... I know all of this is my fault and I shouldn't have gotten into it in the first place. My friend still won't give up on me after I've given him every minute detail of why I had to sever relations with him, but he still has faith that I'll choose him eventually.

Please help me... I don't want to lose my love, but what if I do? How will I cope?

You cheated, so you'll have to suffer the consequences of your actions. In the meantime, do something fulfilling with your time. Do some volunteer work.

You will find a way to cope, and hopefully learn a life lesson in honesty, and loyalty.

I agree with the first two answers but I add, your "friend" is not your friend. You don't do things like that to friends.