So lately I've been feeling like my mum doesn't love me as much as my brothers and sister. It feels like they also don't really love me or like me as much as each other. Yesterday my brother Rick came to visit me, mum and my other brother John from London as he was leaving he said bye to mum and John but he totally ignored me. Last night John was washing up the dishes and kept on spraying water everywhere and my mum was laughing John then went to the toilet an I took over the washing I accidentally sprayed a little bit of water over the kitchen counter and my mum shouted at me for getting water everywhere. During the Olympics my mum my dad Rick and me all went to go see the athletics and mum made a point of sitting next to Rick and then ignored me. I try really hard to please my mum I've taken up dancing, judo and netball all of which are my mums favourite sports I try really hard in school I try and keep my bedroom clean but she complains about me doing the sports because they cost her a little money she says I'm not doing good enough in school even though I am best in the class and well above average for my age. It also seems that I can never be right but John and Rick are always right. My mum and my sister also have a really strong bond they talk about everything but my mum won't even talk to me about puberty I just feel like I am left out. The only reason I feel I have lasted this long is because my brothers and sisters are only half siblings and their dad died about a year and a bit ago and I understand how hard it must be and that the others need that extra bit of love and care but I think my mum is punishing me for still having a dad when her first borns don't. I may still have a dad but he is home about once every two weeks he says he is working night and days for a little bit more money but I know that he doesn't stay at home because he doesn't like the huge rows him and mum get into.

Thanks for reading

I guess I wrote this to ask what do I do? I can't live like this every person needs a loving mother especially though puberty...

Puberty is so super tough but trust me( even though I'm a weirdo on the Internet) it will eventually end. Give your momma all the love you deserve but don't try and look for her praise. You have to let that come from inside of you. Tell yourself that you're great and good and wonderful and keep trying to be great good and wonderful but do it for yourself and not for her.
It seems like your step siblings probably are in a lot of need for attention and it must be hard on your mother spreading herself thin with all the kids. Stay super strong now and don't look to hard for her approval because if you learn those harsh lessons of being independent at the age you're at you'll be a much stronger and understanding adult. And don't think being an adult is that far away.. I'm 19 and all I ever wanted was for puberty and teenage hood to end and now I'm realizing that time goes so much faster then you think.
Good luck, be tough English kid!

Okay Kiddo. I feel the same ways some times and puberty is tough. Agreed it does help to have a mom during that. But for the sports, don't do them just to impress your mother. Do them for YOUR enjoyment. I use to do that and the sports I played weren't very fun because I just did it for my parents. She will come around. If you are best of your class that is a GREAT achievement. I'm 17 and I was never top of my class. And your mother isn't punishing you just because you still have a dad. If that really is it... that is very unfair. I been having conflicts with my mom also. Just ask if you guys can sit down and talk and tell her you are confused on why she treats you the way she is and what your views are :) it will be okay. I am almost always on the boards and will be glad to help anytime. KEEP YOUR CHIN UP HIGH :) good luck sweetie