My nephew was killed in a car accident. I have dreams of bumbers find myself in front of bumbers checking them out. I have had this feeling it was suicide since day one. Out of the blue I asked was it accident or not right yes, left no... I dropped the book got sick and went to bed. Dreamed about bumpers..

Bumpers... as in car bumpers or something else?

Seems like you are trying to communicate to him more so than the other way around.

Bumbers? I have not even one guess as to what this actually means. Obviously not a typo, as it's repeated throughout your post. So please clarify... what's a bumber in actual English?

As for the rest of your post, all I can say is... huh?