'm 14, a female. I'm a freshmen. Everyone in my high school hates me. There are numerous rumors about me having sex with boys in the high school. They're not true. I have tried to kill myself twice but never succeced. I can't even get killing myself right.. I just want to die. I recently lost one of my best friends because of a rumor she heard and refuses to even talk to me now.. I almost lost my absolute best friend today because of rumors.. I just don't know what to do anymore.. Seems everyone would be happier if I was dead. To clarify something. I am not the best kid in the world. I used to get high and drink but I quit. I smoke cigerettes and I am slowly turning to drugs. If I continue the rate I'm going I'll find myself addicted by the age of 16.

So snap out of this self destructive pattern you are in. It sounds like you have done your bit to establish a track record of bad behavior.

Where are your parents in all this?

See your school nurse or counselor. They should be able to direct you to counseling and/ or help with your drug use. If you want to make friends, you will need to clean up your act. Like Wondergirl asked you, where are your parents? Do they know about your drug use? Did they take you to counseling after your suicide attempts?