So ever since 2008 my mother and I have been fighting non stop everyday and night . She mocks my voice and calls me a bipolar and she doesn't realize that the I was born was all due to her and if aI could change the way that I look I would but I can't. She talk bad about me behind my back and then urns around and tell people that she wants the best for me. She calls fat and ugly and that the way that I dress I look like I'm homeless when the funny thing is she buys all my clothes. I go to church and escape from my problem and focus on myself as little as possible but my mother a dent in the church that people are talking about me behind my back. I considered taking my life many times because if my mother hates me that much why doesn't she just kill me. I don't have many friend because my mother doesn't allow me to live my life. I feel like a prisoner in my own house and I try to talk to people about this and they ALL defend my mother. I at my wits end I don't know what to do any more and in order for things to be right I have to be someone that I'm not which is her personal slave. I don't know what to do any more my doesn't love me and I just at my wits end. Any advice that would be great. She also said that if I die she doesn't have a problem burring me in pour front yard

Not sure how old you are but I'm almost 16 l and I can say that she definitely isent handleing things like a reasonable adult should. Mothers shouldn't call their daughters fat or ugly and should not say they wouldn't have a problem Burring you. She is the adult. However, she isent randomly saying these things. You aggravate her as well. And you to, I'm sure have said terrible things out of retaliation.you two should see a counsellor to sort out your issues . Also, you never mention your dad, where is he during theses fights? What does he say? My advice so far with limited info is that yes she is wrong for what she is doing and is acting like a child, but what ever you are doing that pisses her off, try to town that down and just agree with her she. She says something , even if it gives you that hot , shaking a pop bottle feeling Inside, just politely say "ok" or Even if if she's saying something terrible. You two should see a counsellor, & tell me about your dad or even step dads place in this.