ItsMajasTurn
Oct 27, 2012, 11:35 PM
Hi,
I just broke up with my boyfriend that I've been together for 3 and a half years. I'm only 19 but very mature for my age, when I was 17 my (ex) boyfriend got levkemia (blood cancer).. . I stood by his side for 2 years fighting this illness and when he got better he cheated on me.. . twice.
I always said to myself that he needed space from the illness and he needed to feel free again, but was this just an exuse to forgive him and get back together?
We tried again last December and till yesterday I've tried very hard to forget what he has done... He never gave me a good reason (for me) why he cheated on me, and I just kept eaten myself for something that I didn't do.
First 2 months it was great when we got back together, but then everything got worse, he was always in a bad mood, he was nearvous (he never had a good relationship with his dad, because his dad cheated on his mother, but they are still together-familiar ha?)
I guess my question is, Did I do the right thing? I really feel bad and deep down I know it's best for me to let go, but I'm just so used to him being around.. . How do I forgive myself for something I didn't do?
P.s I'm sorry for my english, I'm from Europe
PLEASE help me, I'm desperate
I just broke up with my boyfriend that I've been together for 3 and a half years. I'm only 19 but very mature for my age, when I was 17 my (ex) boyfriend got levkemia (blood cancer).. . I stood by his side for 2 years fighting this illness and when he got better he cheated on me.. . twice.
I always said to myself that he needed space from the illness and he needed to feel free again, but was this just an exuse to forgive him and get back together?
We tried again last December and till yesterday I've tried very hard to forget what he has done... He never gave me a good reason (for me) why he cheated on me, and I just kept eaten myself for something that I didn't do.
First 2 months it was great when we got back together, but then everything got worse, he was always in a bad mood, he was nearvous (he never had a good relationship with his dad, because his dad cheated on his mother, but they are still together-familiar ha?)
I guess my question is, Did I do the right thing? I really feel bad and deep down I know it's best for me to let go, but I'm just so used to him being around.. . How do I forgive myself for something I didn't do?
P.s I'm sorry for my english, I'm from Europe
PLEASE help me, I'm desperate