I've had rough years of my life. Got married, now separated due to abuse and rape. Then next relationship this man had taught me I was the most ugliest person on earth, so now that's drummed into my head.

Now I have met a man 6 months ago through the net. We started talking, laughing and noticed we had a lot in common. I was very hesitant in sharing my picture. Now what I had done was gave him another picture of someone else. We carried on talking and then I started having feelings for this man, I told him things no one ever knew about me. I fell in love as same goes with me.

So now that I'm in love with him and wanting to spend the rest of my life with him he's in love with my personality but not my looks. We still haven't met yet we are suppose to soon. I'm so scared that if he sees me he's going to think of the worst.

I want to ask for his forgiveness and tell him every thing. I've even got a letter for him. I don't know how to start and ask for forgiveness. I want to tell him the whole truth but should it come from the letter or me telling him myself through voice. Yes, I'm a nasty person I already know that. I deserve every bad thing I get from him. I just want his forgiveness :(

Don't 'beg for forgiveness' or do anything except drop the whole relationship - because it's based on a lie. Using the excuse that a previous man made you feel ugly is ridiculous. This man isn't going to want to meet a liar. START A NEW LIFE and stop going online with someone else's picture. Maybe it's time to take a break from relationships for a while and figure out your own strengths so that you can be your own person, and not a reflection in the eyes of some man. The fact that you make bad choices in men means that you need to work on yourself.

Oh - and anyone who 'wants to spend the rest of her life' with someone she hasn't even met in person, and who hasn't even seen her face, is unrealistic and living in fairy tale land.

Yes, I know I sound mean and harsh. I have no wish to hurt you or anyone here. I think you need a cold bucket of water thrown in your face to wake you up, cold reality about life, or you are setting yourself up for more and more pain for the rest of your life.

I kind of agree with him but I'm not mean like that... he's right about the fairy tale. You have to accept that you messed up and you shouldn't come to this website to ask this question. Its what YOU feel you should do... and if I were you... I would give it a shot. I mean it might hurt In the end, but at least you know you have a good personality to make a guy fall in love with you over the internet... and next time send a real picture and see what that person thinks... Good Luck :)) I Hope things work out

You met on the internet. Most people aren't honest on the internet. Just tell him that since you didn't know him, and really, you still don't know him, you only know what he posted to you online, you didn't feel comfortable giving him your real picture. If he can't understand that, than you'll get to know more about him, and the type of person he is.

Before you start this forgiveness letter, which you lied from fear, you should unpack your baggage from your previous failed relationships and get your confidence and self esteem back.

Forgive yourself and let yourself heal for a while and be good to yourself, by yourself so you can be healthy of mind and make good decisions for YOURSELF. Thinking you are in love forever with an Internet stranger is NOT a good decision.