I used to go to community College and after two years I transferred to this top program and a great University. I expected college to be so fun and amazing and I was lucky cause I got housing as a transfer at this great location. I wanted to make the most of my college experience because I only have two years left. It's hard because trying to balance the course load with the amount of effort required compared to community college it a lot and I don't find myself having much time to join anything else. I haven't really been able to to find that balance yet. It's my first semester here.

The few clubs I tried out for I didn't get in. Pretty bummed. I rushed for this business frat and didn't get in. Pretty bummed since I really wanted to meet those friends so I can have that friends I've always wanted to share my college experience with. They love me and I met cool people I keep in touch with but I just didn't get in maybe because I never talked to te leader I have no idea why I still ask myself that. Maybe.

I used to visit this close friend of mine at times over freshman and sophomore year from my Comm. College and I'd have a great time I couldn't wait for college. She used to be my best friend. But she'd idl be weird jealous of me or I don't know what. She knows a ton of people and knowing how close we are I'd have thought shed be excited I'm here but I hardly see her invite me to party with her like once just cause se probably fealt obligated. I don't see her telling me anything except if it's little irreverent events shed invite me too. She shows off the people she knows. I neve ever tried to be dependent on her or give her a reason ever. I feel so distanced from here coming here... I mean she's be great when she wants to be but I don't know. So I haven't talked to her and juat let things be and she started being nice to me and it was so weird like she probably got it or something. She's such a tool it makes me angry. And to top it off my boyfriend who graduated and is working has been sent to a different state to work on a project for 5 months pretty much from August to December. So he's missing my whole first semester. I talk to him and he's visited twice.

She introduces me to her friends but like she Feels like I depend on her like it surprises her that I hear of parties or make friend without her or something.

I haven't partied like I used to since I got here. I don't have that instant friends like most freshman like the only people I knew were her and I fealt so hurt and I fealt unclose to her she seemed so fake.

I mean I don't know what to do. Talk or not time cause I just don't like her. I mean she invites me over and she came nice at times do I invited her to lunch tomm and I don't know. I thought I'd ask this time. Case she does ask to come over to her appt and stuff on campus but I don't know I feel so unclose and I know I can't trust she doesn't have my best interests at heart.

So I try my best to make new friends and I have but it's jr year and people are in their own cliques and have made those friends already. They have those party/ close friends. I have made friends. But I feel so lonely. I go to parties at times (I don't always like to party it really depends web my friends are here and who I'm here with) But I haven't met those friends. The semester is almost over and I worry if I ever will. I know I shouldn't go looking for it. I feel so sad as pathetic and it's not like that but I feel so sad :(

I'm an only child it's my first time living away from home but I still feel like th same person haven't done anything crazy. I would enjoy college more if I had the right people. And the friend I thought I had I realized isn't really my friend after all. She's nice if I go over and what not but she's just fake...

I miss my BF he's so amazing my best friend ever. Idk what to do.. I want to cry :( I just feel way to sad right now.

I feel like I don't belong. I was over at her place she left for a bit so I chilled with her roommates who are mutual friends and other people as well and they were making plans to go somewhere Tomorrow and I felt so awk.

I think I can understand that entering as a junior is tough, as is being so far from your boyfriend. You seem to be handling it about as well as can be expected, given how lonely it must feel. As for the one friend you knew from before, maybe she is just spread too thin to be able to be there for you very much, and is doing the best she can, but it makes her uncomfortable.

You don't say if you live in a dorm or apartment? Usually you develop friendships in the dorm or with roommates first, people who sit near you in class second. Getting together to study and all that, rather than parties and going places. It hasn't been that long yet, even though it probably feels like it, so all I can say is try for the one-on-one friend from where you live or from class rather than the groups you meet at her place.