Gin_Ichimaru
Oct 14, 2012, 04:48 PM
Hello again, if you've already seen my question on the friend I hate.. Then I guess this is related.
Anyway, long story short to introduce my next dilemma of which I seek out the warm embrace of strangers from an online question based website, I pretty much had this great relationship with this girl, I loved her so much, blah blah all was FANTASTIC. Okay, we were together for about 2 years and then she cheated on me with my best friend, and I had to learn to still respect him since, he's pretty much the most popular, strongest and people just don't see how much of a monster he is. While with her, he basically implied sex with other girls and I saw the chats of them to prove it.
Nonetheless, I had to pretty much suck up to him, pretend to be his best friend again, take his rants, know how much of a he was and pretty much cry myself to sleep every night over her, and how he got away with this.
Okay, almost a year goes by for them, they were doing good and she ditches him, straight up. Like, sure when I was with her we had break ups, but we fixed them. They have both, full on done with this one break up. She's now meeting another boy about 4 years older than her, who takes drugs, gets drunk a lot. A drop out. My monster "friend" is having a rough time.. THANK THE LORD FOR ING KARMA, YOU SWEET SON OF A . Anyway, you have no idea how happy I was when it happened, he's less popular, yada yada. Now, SHE talks to me again, but.. She like.. Okay, example: I sit in front of her in one class and she'll kick my chair, and call me a fag. She doesn't (as I'm aware of) do this with any other boy. Yet she will brag about how cute this other guy is and stuff. Anyway, she constantly will have a mock with me about how "Gay" I am, and since I just got a new motorcycle, how gay that is.
Now, I know I'm a moron for talking to her, but truth is guys, after a year I still haven't moved on, I met no other girls after her, never talked to one. My confidence got ruined and I think about her pretty much all the time.
Anyway, I guess their must be some secret fantasy my ego hides from me about us getting back together when I know we never will. I do love her, so much. I'm sorry for the I ever gave to her, and whatever I put her through... I am, I would go back just to make things right with her, but I can't.
Moving on.. In fact, that's all I WANT to do.. I mean, do I distance myself? If so, it's pretty much impossible because of how close I sit by her in classes, or do I just not respond when she pops up on Facebook or whatever.. Also, WHY is she talking to me again? Does she get some sick pleasure of taunting with my emotions? I just need advice guys.. Thanks..
Anyway, long story short to introduce my next dilemma of which I seek out the warm embrace of strangers from an online question based website, I pretty much had this great relationship with this girl, I loved her so much, blah blah all was FANTASTIC. Okay, we were together for about 2 years and then she cheated on me with my best friend, and I had to learn to still respect him since, he's pretty much the most popular, strongest and people just don't see how much of a monster he is. While with her, he basically implied sex with other girls and I saw the chats of them to prove it.
Nonetheless, I had to pretty much suck up to him, pretend to be his best friend again, take his rants, know how much of a he was and pretty much cry myself to sleep every night over her, and how he got away with this.
Okay, almost a year goes by for them, they were doing good and she ditches him, straight up. Like, sure when I was with her we had break ups, but we fixed them. They have both, full on done with this one break up. She's now meeting another boy about 4 years older than her, who takes drugs, gets drunk a lot. A drop out. My monster "friend" is having a rough time.. THANK THE LORD FOR ING KARMA, YOU SWEET SON OF A . Anyway, you have no idea how happy I was when it happened, he's less popular, yada yada. Now, SHE talks to me again, but.. She like.. Okay, example: I sit in front of her in one class and she'll kick my chair, and call me a fag. She doesn't (as I'm aware of) do this with any other boy. Yet she will brag about how cute this other guy is and stuff. Anyway, she constantly will have a mock with me about how "Gay" I am, and since I just got a new motorcycle, how gay that is.
Now, I know I'm a moron for talking to her, but truth is guys, after a year I still haven't moved on, I met no other girls after her, never talked to one. My confidence got ruined and I think about her pretty much all the time.
Anyway, I guess their must be some secret fantasy my ego hides from me about us getting back together when I know we never will. I do love her, so much. I'm sorry for the I ever gave to her, and whatever I put her through... I am, I would go back just to make things right with her, but I can't.
Moving on.. In fact, that's all I WANT to do.. I mean, do I distance myself? If so, it's pretty much impossible because of how close I sit by her in classes, or do I just not respond when she pops up on Facebook or whatever.. Also, WHY is she talking to me again? Does she get some sick pleasure of taunting with my emotions? I just need advice guys.. Thanks..