OohRah12
Sep 12, 2012, 05:43 AM
Howdy Folks,
I just wanted to say thanks to the people who are willing to help me with this problem, especially because this I feel completely stupid about it and can’t figure out about it.
Basically here’s the layout, I know this girl since I went to her school in 5th grade and without boring you about what I thought about her, and she was great. I felt a huge attraction to her but I suffered from shyness. I even told a couple people in 7th grade how I felt about her, which in the normalcy of schools spread so quick that she caught wind and confronted me about it and told me she just wanted to be friends and told me she had a "boyfriend" in another state.
To say the least I was crushed and tried to use my emotions to hate her but I couldn’t, and so I suffered. (Especially hard when you friend begins to the date the girl you like) Then in my freshmen year I got accepted to a private school, and went to board there.
But even there I still couldn’t escape her and I would see here on FB and bump into her briefly at my home town. But we didn’t really hold a conversation for many years. I hoped that I would forget her as I moved on with my life and into new relationships.
Now I’m a USMC Marine and thanks to my wonderful organization got over my shyness and really began to develop (thank you underage clubs and hours of gym time) and am currently deployed in Afghanistan. The girl was furthest thing from my mind and when I got RnR to visit home due to spending a year out here I was happy to be home.
Until I ran into her. She was waitress at restraint and when she saw me she came running over and gave me a big hug. Now I was in trouble all the problems came rushing back and I could barely talk to her and almost ate my meal and left without saying anything. But dug down deep grabbed my sac, and came to the decision to as her for some coffee with me, (thinking that if she said yes I be happy, if not I could put this thing to bed, or not) she smiled and said yes.
We had coffee, had a great time, and came upon the awkward conversation about her BF (who is Afghani, from the same district my unit was deployed in) and about common interests. And for a while during that conversation I was happy because I was able to have an actual conversation with her about things. When we parted ways I was content.
But my heart wasn’t and the thought came up again, "It worked once why not again?" And it did we agreed to go to the movies. I said I would bring my sis and cut who were home to see me, because (I didn’t say this part to her) I didn’t want her to feel awkward about us by ourselves. Unfourtanly things came up and we couldn’t follow through. Though we did have a couple nice conversations, and went for it again, this time I went with my baby sister (only 2 years, cute to bring but not able to speak) to the park with her. She was happy to come along, and then go to lunch with me and my because.
And that was it I was happy with it and thought it was done until I had two things happen after I returned to Afghanistan. First I saw that she broke up with her BF on Facebook, and though my heart tried to leap I was able to crush it back down to a dull throb. Second, my because went to college and was having a hard time and no doubt I used it as an excuse to break the silence and talk to her by asking of her help. She saw my message and quickly responded back and gave her advise and it look like our conversation was going to be all of 5 minutes, as I mentioned "well it’s kind of late." thinking I could end this conversation and go to sleep.
But Karma, that cruel had other plans and her next message wasn’t an ender but her saying that she broke up with her boyfriend. We then talked for over an hour. With laughs I went to bed.
But now I can’t get her out of my head. What the heck. Is she into me or isn’t she, and most importantly could this work. We don’t share the same point on important issues, (she wants to be a human rights worker, and I’m a marine) and we will literally be living in opposite sides of the country. (Stationed in Cali, she goes to school in CT) an I’m lost and confused. Should I make attempts to talk to her or should forget it? Am I reading into this way to deeply? I mean this is a problem, a BIG problem, like I’m afraid I’m becoming a stalker, I keep thinking about her, about what she wore, and trying to analyze on contacts and conversation. AND I can't SEEM TO STOP!! I have no idea what to do. And though it’s been a long time since middle school, I don’t know if I should go for it again. She said she's happy to be single and is currently in London for her year aboard but I don’t know if that means its wouldn’t happen. If you have any advise PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!
I just wanted to say thanks to the people who are willing to help me with this problem, especially because this I feel completely stupid about it and can’t figure out about it.
Basically here’s the layout, I know this girl since I went to her school in 5th grade and without boring you about what I thought about her, and she was great. I felt a huge attraction to her but I suffered from shyness. I even told a couple people in 7th grade how I felt about her, which in the normalcy of schools spread so quick that she caught wind and confronted me about it and told me she just wanted to be friends and told me she had a "boyfriend" in another state.
To say the least I was crushed and tried to use my emotions to hate her but I couldn’t, and so I suffered. (Especially hard when you friend begins to the date the girl you like) Then in my freshmen year I got accepted to a private school, and went to board there.
But even there I still couldn’t escape her and I would see here on FB and bump into her briefly at my home town. But we didn’t really hold a conversation for many years. I hoped that I would forget her as I moved on with my life and into new relationships.
Now I’m a USMC Marine and thanks to my wonderful organization got over my shyness and really began to develop (thank you underage clubs and hours of gym time) and am currently deployed in Afghanistan. The girl was furthest thing from my mind and when I got RnR to visit home due to spending a year out here I was happy to be home.
Until I ran into her. She was waitress at restraint and when she saw me she came running over and gave me a big hug. Now I was in trouble all the problems came rushing back and I could barely talk to her and almost ate my meal and left without saying anything. But dug down deep grabbed my sac, and came to the decision to as her for some coffee with me, (thinking that if she said yes I be happy, if not I could put this thing to bed, or not) she smiled and said yes.
We had coffee, had a great time, and came upon the awkward conversation about her BF (who is Afghani, from the same district my unit was deployed in) and about common interests. And for a while during that conversation I was happy because I was able to have an actual conversation with her about things. When we parted ways I was content.
But my heart wasn’t and the thought came up again, "It worked once why not again?" And it did we agreed to go to the movies. I said I would bring my sis and cut who were home to see me, because (I didn’t say this part to her) I didn’t want her to feel awkward about us by ourselves. Unfourtanly things came up and we couldn’t follow through. Though we did have a couple nice conversations, and went for it again, this time I went with my baby sister (only 2 years, cute to bring but not able to speak) to the park with her. She was happy to come along, and then go to lunch with me and my because.
And that was it I was happy with it and thought it was done until I had two things happen after I returned to Afghanistan. First I saw that she broke up with her BF on Facebook, and though my heart tried to leap I was able to crush it back down to a dull throb. Second, my because went to college and was having a hard time and no doubt I used it as an excuse to break the silence and talk to her by asking of her help. She saw my message and quickly responded back and gave her advise and it look like our conversation was going to be all of 5 minutes, as I mentioned "well it’s kind of late." thinking I could end this conversation and go to sleep.
But Karma, that cruel had other plans and her next message wasn’t an ender but her saying that she broke up with her boyfriend. We then talked for over an hour. With laughs I went to bed.
But now I can’t get her out of my head. What the heck. Is she into me or isn’t she, and most importantly could this work. We don’t share the same point on important issues, (she wants to be a human rights worker, and I’m a marine) and we will literally be living in opposite sides of the country. (Stationed in Cali, she goes to school in CT) an I’m lost and confused. Should I make attempts to talk to her or should forget it? Am I reading into this way to deeply? I mean this is a problem, a BIG problem, like I’m afraid I’m becoming a stalker, I keep thinking about her, about what she wore, and trying to analyze on contacts and conversation. AND I can't SEEM TO STOP!! I have no idea what to do. And though it’s been a long time since middle school, I don’t know if I should go for it again. She said she's happy to be single and is currently in London for her year aboard but I don’t know if that means its wouldn’t happen. If you have any advise PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!