I need a psychiatric help because I like a boy who is my brothers friend I know him since from 4yrs and at last I told him about my feelings regarding him ,but the way he take me as sister,so I'm unable to forget all the unusual things that I used to do to get him,and by this I'm feeling guilt that I made a big mistake.. I always been alone from childhood I never had a friend with whom I can share my feelings suddenly he cam my life turned,this always happened with me but this time I'm suffering a lot,as if I did somebody's murder I'm unable to forget him I'm not even able to find new things in my life I'm feeling to kill myself.. I lost concentration,not even I sleep well,even I'm suffering from headache.. I always felt uneasy while talking boys even sometimes with girls,I want to be free,as evry1 in ths world,I get feelings that I don't belong to this world as I'm a troublesome.. plz let me know what to do because I want to come out of this soon as my parents help me a lot they have lot expectations from me.. I have stupid hope that still one day he will accept me the way I want please please I request anybody give me help..

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