I've been searching similar questions and their answers and reading on depression and such things... but I'm 15 and I'm really confused, and kind of scared. I think I'm usually actually a very happy, enthusiastic person. But sometimes when I'm alone or get home from school, I just tend to break down and cry and hate everything. At first I thought maybe I had a reason, maybe because I'm not as pretty as everyone else, or fit in with really anyone, or things like that, but nowadays it happens frequently, even on days where I'm actually feeling really good and happy.

Honestly, I'm satisfied with myself. I have few friends, but the best friends you could have. I don't hate my face or body or things like that. I'm a 92% averaging student in school, and I don't struggle. I don't have a boyfriend or crush or anything to make my emotions confused. No one bullies me, I don't get into fights, life is good. But I go home and I cry. I cry and I let myself cry because I think it'll just pass. But while I cry it feels horrible. I hate myself, and everyone else, and I just want to sit there and cry forever, and then I fall asleep and when I wake up the feeling is gone and it's all fine. But sometimes I'll cry and cry and only stop crying when someone comes home because I don't want them to see. Sometimes I'll listen to my favourite songs or watch my idols on shows and music videos and make myself happy. But the main point is, I cry really hard, and get over it really quickly and easily, until I feel like crying again.

I really feel so stupid. I don't understand why it's happening. A lot of the answers I've read have things to do with hormones, but I don't know. I don't want to think it's depression, but maybe it is? I feel like I should tell my parents, but I find it embarrassing. What could I say? "Mom, dad, I cry for no reason, is something wrong with me?". And I tell my friends, but they don't really seem to understand what's wrong, so they usually just make me laugh and distract me, which works for a while, until I can't help but feel horrible and cry for no reason whatsoever again. It usually happens when I'm at home, but once or twice I've been at a friend's house and I'd excuse myself to go to the washroom because that feeling in my throat is there again and I let myself cry a bit before wiping my face dry and going back.

It's really frustrating me. It's starting to happen way too often. I wanted to think I could ignore it, but I guess not. I'm really confused, and I don't know what to do. I honestly don't think I have any reason to be so sad or upset, but I'll still just cry and hate myself for crying. Maybe I just need to voice things out more? But I'm a big introvert, and I'm one of those people who like solving things by themselves. Even going as far as letting this all out online is somewhat strange for me... but I really want to know. Is this normal? What should I do?

Oh honey, I am so sorry you are having this happen... at your age there is the hormone thing and it really does do upsetting things, but it's not like an ongoing thing. Maybe the reason you're crying is deeper than you can see? Sometimes things hurt us more than we can cope or sometimes things happened to us in the past, that we covered over and that thing is still there creeping in all the time, cause we didn't deal with it. I am concerned why you can't go to your parents, I would think you wouldn't feel embarrassed and so maybe the issue lies there? Has something happened between your parents and yourself to cause a wall to go up? Maybe a trust issue? And even though you say your okay with things, maybe things do bother you. You go to school and see others with boyfriends or others will a swam of friends and think to yourself, why can't that be me... or why don't I have a lot of friends or why don't I have...
The good news is you like yourself and you think of yourself is OK fine. In God's eyes you are beautiful, smart, friendly and all the rest. We judge ourselves and therefore draw our conclusions. Maybe you are not getting the attention from your parents? What clothes to wear, make up, hair, you know the intimate talk!
If I were you, I would go to my parents or a school councelor (less embarrassing) and just tell them that you have a fight going on inside and you would like to talk to a doctor or professional about it. If it's hormones you will get some medication that will help this right away, if it's something else then you will get to vent yourself to someone that can help you deal with it. I would say the doctor first before you think it's a pyscological thing or something wrong with you. Most importantly and this is something that helps me, "You are the only one that can change you" in other words, when you feel the urge to cry, just say to yourself, "I feel that emotion and I am that emotion, but it doesn't serve me, so at this time I am going to do something else." Then go outside and watch a butterfly or eat something that you love or make your mouth go into a smile by thinking of something funny. You can do it! Just get up and move! Don't let the emotion rule your life! It's like we have a body and a mind and a spirit, and sometimes the mind gets in the way, sometimes the body, but the spirit is the you and it can do anything, especially get away from those two.
I hope I helped you, and I think you're fine but just get yourself checked so you feel better. Not knowing is what is scaring you and making it worse than it is. Take care sweetie, hugs

They tell me it can be a normal thing, but if it is hurting you serioiusly, talk to your parents, counselor or someone about it