AyoTheLioness
Mar 8, 2007, 09:40 AM
Before I start this, I just want to let you all know that I love animals. Cats get on my nerves, and one even killed my pet mouse last summer, but I still love them all in their own rights. I love rodents especially, and mice even more specifically. In the past I've defended them, given presentations on them, cared for them, complained loudly in petstores, and just loved them wherever I've gone. What happened last night makes me feel like I can never, ever go back to that kind, gentle, mouse-loving person.
We've had a mouse living in our house for a while. The little animal never robbed us of any foodstores, and the worst damage was a few droppings in some places-the mouse's food supply was whatever was easily pilferred from the floor of our house. We bought snap traps and then, later, humane traps. The little creature was too smart for the humane traps, which filled me personally with bravado and pride for one of Mus musculus. However, after this continued to happen, me, the person who loves rodents most of all in the entire family, was employed to bait, set, and dispose of the traps. I acted calm, as if this whole thing were no skin off my nose-but only to keep my parents, my mother especially, from getting upset by my 'sentimentalism'.
I went to bed last night after having laid out the traps, praying our little visitor would be able to resist themselves. Not more than ten minutes after I'd gone to bed, I heard the loud clatter. Sure enough, the mouse had been caught, the trap was so powerful it'd flipped itself over and was resting atop the mouse. I turned the trap over, and started blubbering. I still can't believe that ME, of all people, did something like this. The trap's metal bar had gone all the way through the cartilage and bone of her snout, and had taken an eye out. I released the trap and set her up to be buried. If I had to kill an animal I was so strongly an advocate of, I had to at least be somewhat respectful.
How can I 'redeem' myself? I know most people would think nothing of this-even people who are currently keeping domestic mice, a hair away from being wild, are okay with this. But I've always seen all animals as individuals, not as a coagulated lump of a species. I feel horrible. I'm so disgusted with myself I'm afraid to touch my own pet hamster, I feel 'dirty'. What can I do? What should I do? I feel like one of my own pets has been killed-and I feel like I'm no longer in any place to criticise the cats who've left my family rodent corpses in the past.
Any positive input at all would be very, very much appreciated.
We've had a mouse living in our house for a while. The little animal never robbed us of any foodstores, and the worst damage was a few droppings in some places-the mouse's food supply was whatever was easily pilferred from the floor of our house. We bought snap traps and then, later, humane traps. The little creature was too smart for the humane traps, which filled me personally with bravado and pride for one of Mus musculus. However, after this continued to happen, me, the person who loves rodents most of all in the entire family, was employed to bait, set, and dispose of the traps. I acted calm, as if this whole thing were no skin off my nose-but only to keep my parents, my mother especially, from getting upset by my 'sentimentalism'.
I went to bed last night after having laid out the traps, praying our little visitor would be able to resist themselves. Not more than ten minutes after I'd gone to bed, I heard the loud clatter. Sure enough, the mouse had been caught, the trap was so powerful it'd flipped itself over and was resting atop the mouse. I turned the trap over, and started blubbering. I still can't believe that ME, of all people, did something like this. The trap's metal bar had gone all the way through the cartilage and bone of her snout, and had taken an eye out. I released the trap and set her up to be buried. If I had to kill an animal I was so strongly an advocate of, I had to at least be somewhat respectful.
How can I 'redeem' myself? I know most people would think nothing of this-even people who are currently keeping domestic mice, a hair away from being wild, are okay with this. But I've always seen all animals as individuals, not as a coagulated lump of a species. I feel horrible. I'm so disgusted with myself I'm afraid to touch my own pet hamster, I feel 'dirty'. What can I do? What should I do? I feel like one of my own pets has been killed-and I feel like I'm no longer in any place to criticise the cats who've left my family rodent corpses in the past.
Any positive input at all would be very, very much appreciated.