Every time I try to do something good it always goes wrong, even if I ask a simple question I just get yelled at. In school, I can barely concentrate. I hardly remember things and if I need help, I never ask because I have no goddamn confidence :( I feel terrible. All I want to do is, well, cut. I've been clean for nearly 50 days now, the longest in quite awhile, all I want to do is cut. My boyfriend thinks I've stopped but I can't trust myself around anything sharp anymore :( I feel like a terrible girlfriend, I'm so jealous of him, it's not his fault. He's so popular in school, then there's me with hardly any friends. My own fault, as I appear to have pushed themall away and I don't know what to do about it :( I can't tell him not to talk to the girls because I don't want to ruin our relationship. He always asks if I'm all right, I always say I am but of course, I'm lying and he knows it, I just don't want him to worry about me. No one needs to worry about me because if they do, then it's my fault if they get upset. I know this isn't much to do with the questio but I just had to say it to someone :(

If there is one thing that makes me sad it's hearing young women who do not believe in themselves. From the sounds of your post, I would guess you are in high school or around that age. All I can say is that you shouldn't put yourself down or say that you do everything wrong because to be honest, you haven't reached your full potential yet. Trust me, I know that as a teen there are so many pressures and when you have no self-esteem it's even harder to put yourself out there; it's so much easier to hide. Everyone has something good about themselves and everyone has something beautiful about them. You may not see it in yourself, but I'm sure other people see it and so much more. You can't blame yourself for how you feel but you need to remember that you can determine what you become and how you see yourself. As cheesy as it sounds, it's so much easier to be happy; being sad and down on yourself takes too much damn effort. Hope this helps.

If there is one thing that makes me sad it's hearing young women who do not believe in themselves. From the sounds of your post, I would guess you are in high school or around that age. All I can say is that you shouldn't put yourself down or say that you do everything wrong because to be honest, you haven't reached your full potential yet. Trust me, I know that as a teen there are so many pressures and when you have no self-esteem it's even harder to put yourself out there; it's so much easier to hide. Everyone has something good about themselves and everyone has something beautiful about them. You may not see it in yourself, but I'm sure other people see it and so much more. You can't blame yourself for how you feel but you need to remember that you can determine what you become and how you see yourself. As cheesy as it sounds, it's so much easier to be happy; being sad and down on yourself takes too much damn effort. Hope this helps.

Thank you, it helped :)