Nate1515
Aug 27, 2012, 04:20 PM
I've turned to all of my friends and best friend but I feel I need some professional/anonymous advice. My friends say its over and to move on there are better ones out there, that is not true this WAS THE perfect girl trust me. Sorry this may be lengthy. We met in high school and I was her first everything. Soon after we started dating we became immensely close. We then had to move away from each other for college. Well I had to because I was accepted right before this all started. The year away was tough but we got through it and were still happy as ever. I did have a few trust issues but it was just because she is so beautiful and I am not. So after the year away I decided she was worth me taking a huge penalty to my academics and I transferred to a lesser school back home to be closer to you. Mind you, out relationship was so strong and we promised to spend our lives together. This was no small gesture, we both genuinely meant it. So we had 3 years of being close and everything was great. Some small arguments here and there nothing to major. I was kind of mean sometimes for no reason but I will get to that. So a few weeks ago she started becoming distant out of nowhere. Not too distant and I was only mildly concerned. Then one day we went for a walk and I said I'm sorry if I've done anything to upset you recently and we both cried together and she said its okay and she will always love me forever like we promised. Then a few weeks later she was going to go to a concert with me and my friends and I got to her house and she wasn't dressed and her clothes were on her bed to go out. I asked what was wrong and she started crying and said she feels differently. And boy do I mean crying. She actually vomited from being so upset. I was crying as well and was begging like a fool on my knees for hours. I convinced her to give me at least a week to prove it was worth fighting for and the week was up the day before my 21st birthday. Obviously she said no. Said she just does not feel the same anymore and for me to never talk to her again. I asked for an explanation and she said she does not owe me anything. I skipped a semester that I should be in right now to save money for an apartment because she wanted to live together. Now I really screwed myself. I begged and said things I regret for two days after the final break but since then I have not spoken to her. Until last night I emailed her. The email was lengthy but purely harmless just wishing her well and to tell her family I will miss them and I love them, things like that, not asking to get back anymore. No answer obviously. This love was so raw and real I just can't understand what happened. Just like that in 2 weeks all the personal sacrifices I made for her were thrown in my face. I just do not know what to do. Sorry for the poor grammar, funny thing is my vocabulary is much more organized and articulated, I'm just so hurt. It's been 2 weeks I can't sleep, eat, my job sucks, I mean really sucks, but I get paid decent for being a college student, and I took this semester off all for her to get us the apartment we wanted. Any advice would be greatly appreciated, I'm losing my mind literally. I am by no means perfect but she told me I was I told her she was to me too. I'm broken. We were perfect together. I also was diagnosed with depression even though I do not believe it. A week before this all happened and was working up the courage to tell her right when she broke it off.