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Genis
Aug 26, 2012, 08:46 AM
Hello. This story may get a bit confusing I just need to know if she was a true friend after all, or if this is just me.
In fourth grade a new girl, lets call her "R", was in my class. At the time I liked this boy. SO me and R became really close and then I told her I liked this boy, well maybe it was because we were children but she then started liking him and they eventually "liked" each other. She then started talking rumors about me out of no where and when I was walking home tried to fight me.
A year later in fifth grade she was in my class again and that year we became best friends, but I just thought that she had this way of always trying to do everything I did better than I had done it. She was having a lot of family issues and bullying but my parents really tried to help her and she liked them very much.
In sixth grade, we were in separate classes and so I made a new friend lets call her "L". Me and this girl instantly connected and I didn't leave R out. Are became furious and made new friends. Soon R would start harassing me and cyber bulling me, she became mean to other friends and I kept trying to be her friend. At one point she began to be my friend. I then started talking to another boy and I had his number. This boy liked me to. I told R all about it and she said she was happy for me. About two months into me talking to this boy and dating him R asked for his number. I was a little hesitant but I said sure. One night we were having a sleep over and when she was sleeping her phone kept viberating so I decied to see who she was text and it was the boy. He was calling her beautiful so I decied to further investigate to see that she started the whole conversation with how he should like her and how he should forget about me. Now yes I know sixth grade stupid childish mistakes but this is leading up to now.
After that Rumors started going around about me and I forgot about the boy but I was hurt. She'd always start little fights and when we would be friends I'd always try to help her with her problems or other friends fights. It seemed like she always had drama.
In seventh grade me and L became much much closer we were like sisters. I told her everything and I forgot about R. That year I started dating a new boy and I tried to hide it from my parents because they are strict. So one day late in seventh grade R texted me just seeing how I was and things so then we got to talking about my boyfriend and then she asked if my parents knew. I should have said yes but I didn't think because we barely talked and she seemed nice. I played softbal and so did she. After my next game versing her team- the day after- my parents found out about my boyfriend. I was so upset and I asked my mother how she found out, she hesitated and said someone in my grade who doesn't like me much. I didn't know what she was talking about.
My boyfriend and I got back together under my family's approval and eight grade was starting. Me and L were so excited. So R is in my homeroom and we have small chat. Now let me remind you she had no friends at this point and I thought well maybe she changed. I let her into L and me's friendship. A month after that, rumors were going around about me and we all got into a fight. It was something silly about me not atteneding a sleep over because I had made another guy friend and he was very upset that night, so I decied to be there for him. I didn't even know we were having the sleep over and when I told them why I couldn't come R flipped out and called me a whore and slut. I know unappropriate right? So L was very mad at me too and I told her how sorry I was and how I didn't want a silly thing like this to break up our friendship. The next day at school L apolgized and we were friends. She said she couldn't be mad at me.
That night R inboxed me trying to start a fight, she was putting me down and It was very childish I said sorry the night before and she is still trying to fight with me? Ug. So a month later she apolgized and I said okay. I started distancing myself. I then started realizing how much L has begun to change. It was as though she was taking sides with R and acting like her. So soon rumors began to fly and I fell under deep deep depression and I began to change. This, for some reason pissed off L and she flipped out on me. Insluting me and never has she done this. I said whatever and for two months she didn't talked to me. Until, one day at lunch she came up crying to me about how she missed me. I was hesitant but I accepted her, just not R. I forgave R but I was done with all of that sillyness. At lunch I sat with different people and that day when L told R that me and her were friends again R got very angry and didn't talk to L much. L would tell me how R would basically "stalk" her life and always wait at her locker and just gossip. Gossip. Gossip. How should would try to change her veiw about me with the sligtest stare. This made me hesitant to trust L. I don't know why I just had a feeling.
Now during class one day, we were reading our essays we had writtne about a life changing experience and one girl in my class, B, wrote about out how here dad cheated on her mom and how she cutt herself. I know a bit inappropriate but she let the teacher approve it first and our teacher wanted to really know us. That day at lunch R when off to me and L about how B's report was just to get attention. How she cut to get attention and sympathy. I was furious. When B went through this stage in her life she was 10 years old. She had No one. What really flipped my lid was L agreed. Now you can have your opions but that was really upsetting. I told R no. I said she had no one and I felt as though R was mad because B would get more attention then R. R and L didn't say anything. I left and I didn't want to return.
SO of course R tried starting things with me in a childish maner.
Soon L moved and of course R was lonely and one day wihtout hesitation told me we were friends and just started talking about gossip and never gave me a chance to tell her WE AREN'T. Soon rumors began to fly.

I didn't want any part of her and I distanced myself. Now about 1 month ago, it's summer, and I get a call from B saying to look at the pst R posted on her wall. It was a whole paragraphy, TBH, about how B was disguating and worthless and how she is an attention whore. SO B told me that she was sorry she didn't tell me before, but during the school year If I left my seat to go to the bathroom or something. Are would start telling everyone how I was a whore, how I slpet with different people, all those silly things that aren't true. SO I FIGURED I'd call L and Tell her. L was in shock she said wow. 1 hour after that I was on Facebook and L wrote on R's wall "omg i love you so much", Ever since then they nonstop hang out and L doesn't talk to me. I can't believe someone I was so close with someone I helped and cared for could do such a thing. Maybe it's me but I don't know. Is L a true friend?

Homegirl 50
Aug 26, 2012, 09:01 AM
My goodness you wrote a book.

Neither of them are your friends and they have shown it time and time again and you keep putting yourself back in the position for them to hurt you. Are these the only girls you know?
When you keep doing the same thing over and over again and getting the same results, it should be a clue that you should stop. You need to leave them alone.

backpack2389
Aug 27, 2012, 12:22 PM
Agreed. After years of being treated poorly by R I would think by now that you would know to leave her alone.

It also sounds to me like your friend L is caught up in the normal junior high drama that girls create. It's been my experience that at your age all the girls desperately want to be accepted, but many are entirely insecure. These feelings lead girls to do just about anything to fit in with others, which includes L telling you one thing and R another. However, not everyone is quite so bad. It seems like R is extremely insecure/unhappy, leading her to spread those emotions around. You need to leave R alone and maybe hold off communicating with L for a bit until she gets past this phase.

My advice: find other friends (maybe B).