Aleass
Aug 13, 2012, 07:49 PM
Hello,
I know what this sounds like, like I'm stupid and I need to pick one or the other and move on. It's just not that easy.
5 years ago I dated a guy briefly, he was the bad boy type and it was exciting. I ended up ending the very short relationship, only because I was 17 and didn't want to commit. Ever since I've been a serial monomogamist.. With 2 relationships in the last 5 years.. In every relationship this ex of mine gets in contact with me. Through text, fb, email, and he always wants to be with me. Through the yearsbive text him a little bit, but never gone to see him. Now after 2.5 years with my boyfriend, who I live with and am very serious with, I'm considering seeing him. We've been talking and I know I'm wrong to talk to him but I can't get him out of my mind. Now he's asking me whenever he texts to visit him, I know what will happen there. It's the strangest thing.. I have sweet first love memories of the guy, but I strictly want a fling with him now. I've never ever been like this. Never cheated or entertained the idea of cheating. Part of me thinks do it and get it out of my system? Where as part screams NO. would I be able to live with myself? I don't want to leave my boyfriend. But honestly.. I want to sleep with this ex of mine. I trust him.. Hed never say anything to anyone. Not that that's the problem. Anyone ever been in a similar situation? Please help me.
I know what this sounds like, like I'm stupid and I need to pick one or the other and move on. It's just not that easy.
5 years ago I dated a guy briefly, he was the bad boy type and it was exciting. I ended up ending the very short relationship, only because I was 17 and didn't want to commit. Ever since I've been a serial monomogamist.. With 2 relationships in the last 5 years.. In every relationship this ex of mine gets in contact with me. Through text, fb, email, and he always wants to be with me. Through the yearsbive text him a little bit, but never gone to see him. Now after 2.5 years with my boyfriend, who I live with and am very serious with, I'm considering seeing him. We've been talking and I know I'm wrong to talk to him but I can't get him out of my mind. Now he's asking me whenever he texts to visit him, I know what will happen there. It's the strangest thing.. I have sweet first love memories of the guy, but I strictly want a fling with him now. I've never ever been like this. Never cheated or entertained the idea of cheating. Part of me thinks do it and get it out of my system? Where as part screams NO. would I be able to live with myself? I don't want to leave my boyfriend. But honestly.. I want to sleep with this ex of mine. I trust him.. Hed never say anything to anyone. Not that that's the problem. Anyone ever been in a similar situation? Please help me.