So after six months of waiting around for my ex to come back maybe realise he loves me... And it hasn't happened I have finally given up and moving swiftly on.
I'm seeing someone else who makes me laugh and is not rebound at all. So I'm quite happy!
But I still get days where I just get random flash backs of happy memories with my ex! I've known him since the age of 10 and it's so hard trying to forget him.
I don't know if it means I still am in love with him because I think I am not but I know I care about him very very much and I do love him as a person even after he's cheated on me, doesn't want me at all when I can say 100% I never done anything wrong to him. I see all the faults in what are relationship was. They weren't much..
Just that we saw each other every day which I don't count as a fault because I loved him. We barely ever even argued! And when we did it would last about five minutes and we were fine again! I'm loved by his whole family so much so that his mum still calls me "her little girl" and she has broke down to me twice when I have bumped into her and told my dad she is appalled by what he's done and for him finishing me.
I'm wondering if the flashbacks will ever stop! Because they really upset me sometimes! I keep having dreams too and I've really came a long way in my eyes so why is it happening after I got closure and everything?
I also want someone's opinion as to whether he'll ever regret what he has done? I think it would be so in humane to not regret it! I'm not full of myself but I really couldn't have been better for him if anything I was way too good for him and I'm not ugly either.. I've had modelling shoots since we broke up and even he says still that I deserve better... We were together for so long so young and so close! I wonder if there's going to be a day he regrets it!
I want him to, as I hope one day we can be friends. I would never trust him again and what we had is long gone now, I would be so unhappy to ever be back with him. So I am completely fine one day now to be friends like we use to be.
They say that a lot of boys regret finishing their long term girlfriend to "play the field" as they eventually realise that the grass isn't greener.. Does anyone think this may apply here? But may take a long long time for this to happen?
I kind of want peace of mind, it's nice to think that he could realise...