We had an huge argument this last Monday and we are in nc from that day but whole mistake was mine during that incident. I doubt on her I know she is hurted very much but her birthday is on this Saturday. I want to make a call to her as as I am feling very guilty for my mistakes. But I don't want to say sorry to her on that day. Just want to feel her that I care for her very much as she told me about his birthday just one time before one year. And she is not ex girlfriend. I still love her and she too I know. I know many of you will say no but accepting my mistake is not a bad idea! I think. I want to make a call at 12 am , as she use to awake around 3 am. I really want to say her sorry . I want to make a call because if she responds in good way then I ask her for casual meeting and I want to tell her everything which is in my heart openly. Then accepting or not is her wish. And I can't wait more as she is also tolerating nc because of me. How to proceed that phone call? I know she will not contact me first as 100% mistake is mine. And please answer about thinking human nature don't answer bluntly :) , I love her very much and I can't move on until she says me this that I don't love you and never contact me . I will respect her decision. But just tell me how to proceed that phone call as I am going to call for sure :) its my heart voice and gut feeling.