mamakoala
Aug 1, 2012, 09:23 PM
About a year ago I started dating this guy that I had only known for a few weeks, I liked him but I wasn't really crazy about him at first. He couldn't stop telling me how much he loved me and wanted to be with me forever, he still tells me it all the time, saying things like he wants to marry me. The thing is I'm only 19, he's 22. I do love him, but I don't know if I'm going to want to be with him forever. I'm going to college and don't have any desire to marry in the near future.
Then a little more than three months into our relationship, I found out that I was three months pregnant. I decided to keep the baby, I wasn't sure that I wanted to but I'm incredibly happy that I did, but from the time I found out he made it clear that he'd be thrilled if I did. He was wonderful all throughout my pregnancy, carrying everything for me and driving me around, going to all the doctor appointments.
But I still don't know if I want to be with him forever, and I feel trapped because he's the father of my baby and he wants to be in the baby's life, but if I decide I don't want to be with him or if I wanted to move down south with my mom and her family, I'd be taking his child away from him. He doesn't have the money to move anywhere, and that would crush him, but I've always wanted to move to a different state.
Part of me thinks that I should have broken up with him a long time ago, but part of me likes the comfort of having him around. I just feel like there's someone out there that I'm much more compatible with and that by staying with him I might be missing out. Also I want what's best for my baby, and I don't know if I could live with myself if I made it so that my boyfriend wasn't able to see our baby.
Then a little more than three months into our relationship, I found out that I was three months pregnant. I decided to keep the baby, I wasn't sure that I wanted to but I'm incredibly happy that I did, but from the time I found out he made it clear that he'd be thrilled if I did. He was wonderful all throughout my pregnancy, carrying everything for me and driving me around, going to all the doctor appointments.
But I still don't know if I want to be with him forever, and I feel trapped because he's the father of my baby and he wants to be in the baby's life, but if I decide I don't want to be with him or if I wanted to move down south with my mom and her family, I'd be taking his child away from him. He doesn't have the money to move anywhere, and that would crush him, but I've always wanted to move to a different state.
Part of me thinks that I should have broken up with him a long time ago, but part of me likes the comfort of having him around. I just feel like there's someone out there that I'm much more compatible with and that by staying with him I might be missing out. Also I want what's best for my baby, and I don't know if I could live with myself if I made it so that my boyfriend wasn't able to see our baby.