solorolo12
Jul 25, 2012, 03:31 PM
Okay I don't know where to start .
I am a bi young guy who had split up wiv a recent relashionahip and suppose at this point became more curious about a guy .
I never been near a guy or felt anything towards them until last year I was open to try it . I was not openly out as bi and really I'm still not as that's my choice for now .
Anyway I found someone local online and slowly trusted and liked him more and more as I became closer he wanted to meet but I didn't tell him my personal details like my home address or phone number just my mobile and first name . We then met for a drink one night and then a couple more times and engaged in sex . After the sexual meet slowly my feelings died out about this relashionship I slowly realized and learnt this was not really what I wanted and maybe a wrong turn . I gentley let the guy down by saying it wasn't what I wanted I had only met him 3 times by this point once sexual.
The guy also has a violent history of being in and out of prison of drunken abuse and violence which I didn't know until after I told him I didn't want to further the relashionship and wasn't what I wanted. He did not like the fact I was choosing to end it and felt I played him along . I said I haven't my feelings have changed he then found my name through my mobile number and address and home phone and my fbook profile and knows all my family. This scared me as he has pictures and messages from me that he could use against me so we argued and he called me when I ignored him then called home number at 3 am and he was sorry sayinh it was a mistake. So he dicieded I could go and he would accept I was over with him. So we met I talked and said I was sorry and goodbye. I then had a couple of days too myself until on a work night I got a call from him drunk and screaming down the phone saying he was going to knock on my door ruin my life and talk tp my parents and family and ruin my life he then said he was going to bomb my house . As he threatened he said he was in a taxi round and there was nothing I could do I cried on phone and said get out and il drive and talk to u . So I drove to him while he waited we met on a random street where he yelled abuse at me and said he would get his family members to come and beat me up and still threatening to call my family or friends I then sat down on a bench where I got up to walk away as I cried I was sorry and he grabbed me squeezed me and stared at me and said "im not going to rape u thats sick " this worried me as I had know idea where those words would come from. I then sat back down and hugged him as he made me hugg him and he apologized for everything he had done that night so I said I was sorry and we seemed back to normal and apart . So I offerd him a lift home he was very drunk and as I dropped him off he kissed me I just kissed him because he was drunk but stopped as he kept putting his head in my crotch which I was very uncomftable with so kept pushing him away sayinh i.needed to go homw as by this poiny it was 3 am and nobody or my parents knew where I was as I had to run out before he got to my home . He then rufused to get out my car and grabbed onto me as I tried to get out saying he wasn't going to go anywhere until I came I'm his house or stayed there we struggled for about 10 minutes as I tried to get his hands off me and I fell out the car him still grabbing me and I then got back into there car tried to lock it but in a panic missed and he got back in . I argued more begging to let me go home . And he then message my family saying I was gay and he was with me( in an email wich I managed to delete but he doesn't know I deleted it ) .in shock and hysterics I called police as he wouldn't get out my car then he had my homenumber on his phone calling saying he was going to talk to my mum so in a blackmailed panic I told police man I had sorted it . He then made me go into his house wich I begged not to go into I wanted to go home where he slayted me calling me names for half hour , then he let me go as I cried to my car he came out and threatened me more the police called back and I said I was fine and he made me come back in at this point I was in floods of tears in deep distress he then made us go to his mums bed wherw he tried to cuddle me as I had my hands over my face saying let me go home he then said "i will i just want to cuddle " as he saif it I turned over hands still over my face when he took his pants off and said make me and you can go so scared and threatened I mastubated him he then said u as well I said I can't he said u have to or your not going home . So I tried my hardest he kept sucking me even though I tried to stop him then kepy kissing me even thou I pushed him away and he then put himself inside me saying it make him faster I said no and he said he only do it a little bit in scard position I let him he pushed a lot in and I pushed him and said no and he pushed a little bit in again and kept trying I said no again stating I dony like it as he told me to . I managed to get there in the end he said okay you can go home . I was numb in terror nothing matterd to me in the world I got in my car and tried to forget it or it would ruin my mind.
Okay so after the horrific ordeal I have been having text saying he is so sorry for what he did and said he will let me go after I meet him again and say bye to his face which trumatic again I did and said to leave me alone and he said he would and he sorry and he won't say anything . So I left it at that this has all made me extremely paranoid and depressed in anxiety and today he has made more blackmail saying I'm in the wrong for leading him on and I can't just choice to end this. We started talking 11 months ago but only met 5 times .I feel like a worthless human being who lost love and maybe paid the price I don't know .
I am a bi young guy who had split up wiv a recent relashionahip and suppose at this point became more curious about a guy .
I never been near a guy or felt anything towards them until last year I was open to try it . I was not openly out as bi and really I'm still not as that's my choice for now .
Anyway I found someone local online and slowly trusted and liked him more and more as I became closer he wanted to meet but I didn't tell him my personal details like my home address or phone number just my mobile and first name . We then met for a drink one night and then a couple more times and engaged in sex . After the sexual meet slowly my feelings died out about this relashionship I slowly realized and learnt this was not really what I wanted and maybe a wrong turn . I gentley let the guy down by saying it wasn't what I wanted I had only met him 3 times by this point once sexual.
The guy also has a violent history of being in and out of prison of drunken abuse and violence which I didn't know until after I told him I didn't want to further the relashionship and wasn't what I wanted. He did not like the fact I was choosing to end it and felt I played him along . I said I haven't my feelings have changed he then found my name through my mobile number and address and home phone and my fbook profile and knows all my family. This scared me as he has pictures and messages from me that he could use against me so we argued and he called me when I ignored him then called home number at 3 am and he was sorry sayinh it was a mistake. So he dicieded I could go and he would accept I was over with him. So we met I talked and said I was sorry and goodbye. I then had a couple of days too myself until on a work night I got a call from him drunk and screaming down the phone saying he was going to knock on my door ruin my life and talk tp my parents and family and ruin my life he then said he was going to bomb my house . As he threatened he said he was in a taxi round and there was nothing I could do I cried on phone and said get out and il drive and talk to u . So I drove to him while he waited we met on a random street where he yelled abuse at me and said he would get his family members to come and beat me up and still threatening to call my family or friends I then sat down on a bench where I got up to walk away as I cried I was sorry and he grabbed me squeezed me and stared at me and said "im not going to rape u thats sick " this worried me as I had know idea where those words would come from. I then sat back down and hugged him as he made me hugg him and he apologized for everything he had done that night so I said I was sorry and we seemed back to normal and apart . So I offerd him a lift home he was very drunk and as I dropped him off he kissed me I just kissed him because he was drunk but stopped as he kept putting his head in my crotch which I was very uncomftable with so kept pushing him away sayinh i.needed to go homw as by this poiny it was 3 am and nobody or my parents knew where I was as I had to run out before he got to my home . He then rufused to get out my car and grabbed onto me as I tried to get out saying he wasn't going to go anywhere until I came I'm his house or stayed there we struggled for about 10 minutes as I tried to get his hands off me and I fell out the car him still grabbing me and I then got back into there car tried to lock it but in a panic missed and he got back in . I argued more begging to let me go home . And he then message my family saying I was gay and he was with me( in an email wich I managed to delete but he doesn't know I deleted it ) .in shock and hysterics I called police as he wouldn't get out my car then he had my homenumber on his phone calling saying he was going to talk to my mum so in a blackmailed panic I told police man I had sorted it . He then made me go into his house wich I begged not to go into I wanted to go home where he slayted me calling me names for half hour , then he let me go as I cried to my car he came out and threatened me more the police called back and I said I was fine and he made me come back in at this point I was in floods of tears in deep distress he then made us go to his mums bed wherw he tried to cuddle me as I had my hands over my face saying let me go home he then said "i will i just want to cuddle " as he saif it I turned over hands still over my face when he took his pants off and said make me and you can go so scared and threatened I mastubated him he then said u as well I said I can't he said u have to or your not going home . So I tried my hardest he kept sucking me even though I tried to stop him then kepy kissing me even thou I pushed him away and he then put himself inside me saying it make him faster I said no and he said he only do it a little bit in scard position I let him he pushed a lot in and I pushed him and said no and he pushed a little bit in again and kept trying I said no again stating I dony like it as he told me to . I managed to get there in the end he said okay you can go home . I was numb in terror nothing matterd to me in the world I got in my car and tried to forget it or it would ruin my mind.
Okay so after the horrific ordeal I have been having text saying he is so sorry for what he did and said he will let me go after I meet him again and say bye to his face which trumatic again I did and said to leave me alone and he said he would and he sorry and he won't say anything . So I left it at that this has all made me extremely paranoid and depressed in anxiety and today he has made more blackmail saying I'm in the wrong for leading him on and I can't just choice to end this. We started talking 11 months ago but only met 5 times .I feel like a worthless human being who lost love and maybe paid the price I don't know .