Mb242424
Jul 19, 2012, 02:51 PM
I met my boyfriend in Italy 2 years ago. After a year of long distance, I moved to Italy to be with him ( I'm American ). This past year I have been working 6 days a week, every week, and adjusting to every possible change necessary. It has been a difficult road, but I honestly thought he could be the one, so therefore I tried.
I left my entire life behind to start something new with him because he could not do the same for me. I left my job, my friends, my family, and quit school.
Every day was a challenge, but I was up for it until the day I realised he was not thinking about my future, but only of his own. After numerous fights, discussions, and battles to make him understand... I than began to break down. I knew I had to leave him. I told him I was going back to the states to return to school and he was completely devastated. Torn and broken, he tried to be OK. I told him I would be buying my ticket home soon, but didn't specify when... Eventually after a fight and a long night of tears, I bought my ticket. I didn't tell him, and when he found out from one of my friends he told me to get out of our apartment in less than 24hrs, leaving me nowhere to go in a foreign country.
So I did. 10 hours later I left him. A friend helped me move all my things as his Italian mother watched as I struggled through the door. I was left feeling sad, hurt, and very alone. I know he felt the same but I just can't make sense of anything right now. I don't even know what I feel.
I left my entire life behind to start something new with him because he could not do the same for me. I left my job, my friends, my family, and quit school.
Every day was a challenge, but I was up for it until the day I realised he was not thinking about my future, but only of his own. After numerous fights, discussions, and battles to make him understand... I than began to break down. I knew I had to leave him. I told him I was going back to the states to return to school and he was completely devastated. Torn and broken, he tried to be OK. I told him I would be buying my ticket home soon, but didn't specify when... Eventually after a fight and a long night of tears, I bought my ticket. I didn't tell him, and when he found out from one of my friends he told me to get out of our apartment in less than 24hrs, leaving me nowhere to go in a foreign country.
So I did. 10 hours later I left him. A friend helped me move all my things as his Italian mother watched as I struggled through the door. I was left feeling sad, hurt, and very alone. I know he felt the same but I just can't make sense of anything right now. I don't even know what I feel.