My family loathes me... My friends aren't real friends, I know they speak of me behind my back... I'm just so, so tired... I used to care, I wanted to have a wonderful career (entymology) and a great life... But now, now I realize that there just isn't a point to it.. No one loves me or cares about me... My own mother suggested suicide... My grades have dropped, I no longer have a social life, and it's very difficult to get along with my family. My mother called me trash, and said she hated me... in my anger I told her I hated her as well... But I didn't mean it... I love her. I'm tired of trying and want to die. Everyone thinks I'm a slut or whore, and say so ( including my family.) and all because of the way I dress. I've never even had a boyfriend. My mother yells at me for being in my room all the time, she says all I do is sleep, but in fact, all I do is cry, and stare at the knife I keep by my bedside... Sometimes I take it and make small scratches, nothing big. However, I wish to go further. I'm just afraid of the pain and what will happen to me after death. I don't want to go to hell. I miss my father... He died almost three years ago. But he'd of been glad with my absence as well. I know no one will care when I'm gone... They think I'm an annoying y slut, who is melodramatic... I hate myself.. I always have.. There's no reason for me to live anymore.. I'm just so scared of the pain... Help me, or give me suicide suggestions which are painless..

"Everyone thinks I'm a slut or whore, and say so ( including my family.) and all because of the way I dress."

Tell me more about how you dress. How old are you? 14? 19? 28?

"Everyone thinks I'm a slut or whore, and say so ( including my family.) and all because of the way I dress."

Tell me more about how you dress. How old are you? 14? 19? 28?
I'm 16, sometimes I wear low cut shirts, but not that low, it's just that I have a large cleavage.. So it looks lower.

I'm 16, sometimes I wear low cut shirts, but not that low, it's just that I have a large cleavage.. So it looks lower.
And every time you bend over, we can see all the way to England.

So stop wearing scoop-necked and low-cut tops. You do understand why you are getting negative comments, right?

And every time you bend over, we can see all the way to England.

So stop wearing scoop-necked and low-cut tops. You do understand why you are getting negative comments, right?

That's actually kind of a minor problem, and they're actually not that low... It's just about 3 inches under collarbone... But since I'm busty it looks lower... :( you're really not helping..

But lots of little problems add up.

As you get older, things go good in life and at times things go bad, but the great thing, things change. In a couple of years, you leave high school, and most likely will never see over 3/4 of these people again, I went to college ( changed careers several times) moved away and have not see any of them for 20 years till I went back to a reunion and then again at another reunion.

Guess what the popular cheer leaders were fat, married that star football player who ended up a drunk who works at the local gas station still. The nerds, who were made fun of in high school became the engineers and other professionals who are now the big money makers.
Several of the "ugly" girls" were now looking like they should be on a magizine.

So your life now is not "real" it is not what it will be like in 10 years. You make it what you want it, if you don't like it, change it

Dear Friend!
I can understand the pain that you are going through. Its really not that easy to tolerate the taunting of your best support system of life, 'FAMILY'. I am so sorry about it. But life doesn't end there. I can help you start your life once again. You are young and you can start from scratch. Old bugs are difficult, but not you. So cheer-up, I am there.

I have a small request which you have to listen immediately before doing anything. Simply wear what your mom wants to wear. That would ease a little bit of your tension, am sure.

You are 16 years old as you have mentioned in one of your comments. Were you good in studies before? What are your hobbies that give you pleasure, I mean you enjoy doing them? How many members you have in your home apart from your mom? I need you to answer my questions, then only I can help you.