bv0
Jul 14, 2012, 09:20 PM
I'll start with the beginning... I meet this girl when I was 13 from a mutual friend and or of a group of six other girls, she stood out. We messaged each other everyday for a while and talked on the phone all night every night... then we lost contact... I had a special place for her in my heart and I was very upset and heart broken, but I got over her. Then one day, two years later, we met up and I we instantly just... clicked... We were talking again and I even broke up with my girlfriend at the time. I knew I had always wanted to be with her, she was everything I ever wanted... I'm not even exaggerating. She broke up with me 11 says before it would be our 1 year. During that one year out was fantastic, but had made stone great mistakes that cost us or relationship. First of all, I said some not so nice things about her mother... which at the time fit the situation... I couldn't get enough of this girl and she couldn't get enough of me. Her mother was extremely strict and really limited us... I could only see her for a few hours on a weekend... A could never be left alone... or unwatched... After a while her mother was sick of us staying on the phone all night every night... so we couldn't talk on the phone... Probably more but you get the point. Next... stupidly, like a hormonal teenager does, I took her for granted and crossed some boundaries... Its so hard when you both want it. We didn't have sex though very close, but we did as much as we could every chance we could get. Then maybe two months before she broke up with me she told me she doesn't want to do stuff anymore... being understanding and not wanting to harm or relationship... I did what she said... We still had a great time... whenever we could ever see each other... and then she breaks up with me... saying that she needs to get closer to God and such I'm a Christian like her... but I sort of have a different way of thinking... there are allot of things that I don't understand so I'm on the wall about it a lot. Anyway I beg her and she takes me backbut that next morning she breaks up again... I knew inside of me that this wasn't going to work out.. so I told her to never talk to me so I could further about her... I was depressed for a week or so but it for better... but she was still on my mind every day... especially at night.. laying in bed... after a few months I could stand it and messaged her througha social networking site... that nobody really uses anymore... half way hoping that she won't read it... yet I checked every night wondering if she had replied... it took a while but she eventually had read it and replied, she said she was happier then she had ever been... happier without me... this crushed me... she had mentioned that she still thinks about me every day and the times we had... shined a glimmer of hope... I lived on, without contact with her. Although recently I've been having these dreams about her one so horrible I woke up sobbing... its been over a year since we broke up and I'm still like this! I need help! Sorry this was so long,I hope someone will actually read this whole thing... if anyone does thank you so much for your time and consideration