My mum died 3yrs ago but I still miss her when she died I was 17 and was pregnant with my little boy mym mum died 4 days before he was born so he never got to meet her but she was a great lady . She would help any one no matter what it was she was there she would never leave you to deal with it on your own . She was my bestmate I feel lost with out her because it was always just me and her I have a great boyfriend who's been there the hole step of the way but sometimes I feel like saying to him why do you bother there's loads of women out there that areprettier then me and they are normal and haven't got issues like I have . I'm not the girl I used to be I've changed I'm stressed, scared and sad and I feel like I'm just dragging him down . I want my family to be happy but I feel like I'm the 1 holding them back . I JUST WANT TO BE ME AGAIN !

I know this is going to seem like a stupid answer but I'm guessing you have something precious and when you think of that item the first thing that comes to your mind is your mum. If so then you could always talk to that. You could also carry a picture of her with you in your pocket or purse.

It's common to feel like you're letting the people you love down when you yourself feel unhappy. I felt this not that long ago, directed towards my partner and my best friend. I couldn't see why they were around, or why they cared for me and was terrified that if I didn't get happy soon they'd run away.

The first thing I did to put myself on a new path is I stopped and took a big breath.

The second and only other thing I did was continue to tell myself that I am me, I am awesome and I am Loved.

As soon as you feel down, just take a deep breath and say, "Everything is okay, I am me, and I am loved"

Good Luck