Animals101
Jul 5, 2012, 08:38 PM
Hello. My name is Animals101 and this is my first question on this site. Before I actually ask my question it would be appreciated if you read my personal experience first. Here's my story. Two years ago I was in my worst year of school in my life. The teachers were irritable and the my fellow classmates were unkind and acted more like chimps than anything. However, I my social studies class was my favorite time of the day. I had the nicest and most understandable teacher and I actually had the pleasure of sitting next to someone who was very different from the other students.
She was a brilliant girl. You know, someone who can actually think! Even more appealing was that she was the one of the nicest people I ever had the joy of knowing. She always greeted me with a smile and was comfortable talking with me, and at the time I felt that everyone hated me. For her own protection she will only be known by the first letter of her name, A.
Love at first sight is not the term for my relationship with A. When I first met her she was my friend and nothing more, but my feelings began to form into a mild crush. I should also point out that I thought she was gorgeous. A had big beautiful brown eyes and full rich lips. Because she was of Indian decent (as in the Asian country, not the people native to America) she had perfect cinnamon skin and long silky raven hair. She is also thin due to her participation in running club.
I never told A for that school year on my feelings, because I assumed they were juvenile and mild. "It was just a crush" I told myself. "I'll get over it." She was only my friend, but in a fit of paranoid I felt she was disgusted by me and knew I liked her toward the end of that year. Is any of this actually true? No. Why did I think this? There wasn't an actual reason. When I look back I realize I felt lousy about myself in general, so it makes sense that I was so paranoid. What can you do? I was only 13.
Anyway, I never forgot about A during that summer. She was just perfect! She was so smart and kind... Two aspects of life that my generation has forgot. In the next year of school, those feelings flooded back after I actually spoke with A for the first time that year. She was so happy to see me! And I now think I did a pathetic job at showing her how I missed her. Regardless, we reformed our friendship. However, it was far more awkward than before mainly because I feel my crush for A has grown and I was shy to begin with.
After many months, a few weeks before the end of the school year, I got the nerve to tell her how I felt, "Hi, A. We've been friends for - two years, and even though we don't know that much about each other because we don't have any classes together this year, I just want you to know I think you're great. A-And since it's the end of the year I just want you to know- umm... ha... (swallow) I like you..."
And A responded with, "Awwwww! That's so sweet! I think you're awesome, too."
Yes, this exchange was a bit awkward, but A already knew I liked her from another friend of mine.
Now we catch up with the present. Closer to the end of school we have our only school dance. Of course, I cowered like a jellyfish and didn't ask her. By the time I was going to, someone else did. Don't see this as a discouraging sign. Another thing, you should know about A is that she is a social butterfly, so she spends her time hovering from friend to friend. This is also why it's tough to hang out with her outside of school.
Anyway, I did end up dancing with her briefly, but she was quickly taken away by one of her girlfriends and I didn't get a chance to ask her again.
It should be noted at this point that I am considered a very good artist and during the year I gave A several drawings including an illustration of a rabbit (one of her favorite animals) for Valentine's Day. Another thing I should note is that A is a very talented actress and singer. During the year, she performed in a play based off Hansel and Gretel (with her as Gretel).
As a way of saying goodbye, for this was our last year at that school, I gave her an illustration of her in her Gretel costume and a silver bracelet with a pink music note charm attached to it. This is my favorite part She was very touched and flattered, and she thanked me generously. It was such a pleasant interaction. I treasure it because it showed me that she cares about me. She actually treasures my friendship. :)
Now it's summer. I continue texting with A, but I'm afraid that I'll never see her again :( Basically my question is, WHAT DO I DO NOW? What do I do to make A my girlfriend? I feel I actually love her...
She was a brilliant girl. You know, someone who can actually think! Even more appealing was that she was the one of the nicest people I ever had the joy of knowing. She always greeted me with a smile and was comfortable talking with me, and at the time I felt that everyone hated me. For her own protection she will only be known by the first letter of her name, A.
Love at first sight is not the term for my relationship with A. When I first met her she was my friend and nothing more, but my feelings began to form into a mild crush. I should also point out that I thought she was gorgeous. A had big beautiful brown eyes and full rich lips. Because she was of Indian decent (as in the Asian country, not the people native to America) she had perfect cinnamon skin and long silky raven hair. She is also thin due to her participation in running club.
I never told A for that school year on my feelings, because I assumed they were juvenile and mild. "It was just a crush" I told myself. "I'll get over it." She was only my friend, but in a fit of paranoid I felt she was disgusted by me and knew I liked her toward the end of that year. Is any of this actually true? No. Why did I think this? There wasn't an actual reason. When I look back I realize I felt lousy about myself in general, so it makes sense that I was so paranoid. What can you do? I was only 13.
Anyway, I never forgot about A during that summer. She was just perfect! She was so smart and kind... Two aspects of life that my generation has forgot. In the next year of school, those feelings flooded back after I actually spoke with A for the first time that year. She was so happy to see me! And I now think I did a pathetic job at showing her how I missed her. Regardless, we reformed our friendship. However, it was far more awkward than before mainly because I feel my crush for A has grown and I was shy to begin with.
After many months, a few weeks before the end of the school year, I got the nerve to tell her how I felt, "Hi, A. We've been friends for - two years, and even though we don't know that much about each other because we don't have any classes together this year, I just want you to know I think you're great. A-And since it's the end of the year I just want you to know- umm... ha... (swallow) I like you..."
And A responded with, "Awwwww! That's so sweet! I think you're awesome, too."
Yes, this exchange was a bit awkward, but A already knew I liked her from another friend of mine.
Now we catch up with the present. Closer to the end of school we have our only school dance. Of course, I cowered like a jellyfish and didn't ask her. By the time I was going to, someone else did. Don't see this as a discouraging sign. Another thing, you should know about A is that she is a social butterfly, so she spends her time hovering from friend to friend. This is also why it's tough to hang out with her outside of school.
Anyway, I did end up dancing with her briefly, but she was quickly taken away by one of her girlfriends and I didn't get a chance to ask her again.
It should be noted at this point that I am considered a very good artist and during the year I gave A several drawings including an illustration of a rabbit (one of her favorite animals) for Valentine's Day. Another thing I should note is that A is a very talented actress and singer. During the year, she performed in a play based off Hansel and Gretel (with her as Gretel).
As a way of saying goodbye, for this was our last year at that school, I gave her an illustration of her in her Gretel costume and a silver bracelet with a pink music note charm attached to it. This is my favorite part She was very touched and flattered, and she thanked me generously. It was such a pleasant interaction. I treasure it because it showed me that she cares about me. She actually treasures my friendship. :)
Now it's summer. I continue texting with A, but I'm afraid that I'll never see her again :( Basically my question is, WHAT DO I DO NOW? What do I do to make A my girlfriend? I feel I actually love her...