chance2cu
Jun 25, 2012, 01:46 PM
Okay so I’m in this program and I live with 11 people for a year. We are all with each other 24 hours. And well I’m half way done with my term and me and this guy have gotten close, we cuddle together at nights and stay up all night talking. The problem is I really don't want to have a boyfriend and he kept bugging me how he will keep it a secret and won’t tell and I figured okay whatever.
So after a month of hanging out with him I decided to date him. I feel childish for being secretive. But I feel off about it now. I have this one guy on my team who is like my best friend. And my new boyfriend is now causing all this drama how he hates him and when I asked why he just said he was like he is just a jerk. I went to the movies with my friend and I got over text messages saying how my friend is just using me. So I talked about it with him and he said he was jealous. And when I said why he said because you’re always so happy to see him and you guys get along so well and are always doing stuff together and you don't do that with me.
And I have to say I do like my friend but not in that way. And it’s very true I get along so much better with my friend and I feel like I really only get along with my boyfriend when we are just one and one. I can't play around with him the same way. But I still don't like my friend that way. But my problem is I don't feel overly joyed to be with him and I don't know what I want.
So after a month of hanging out with him I decided to date him. I feel childish for being secretive. But I feel off about it now. I have this one guy on my team who is like my best friend. And my new boyfriend is now causing all this drama how he hates him and when I asked why he just said he was like he is just a jerk. I went to the movies with my friend and I got over text messages saying how my friend is just using me. So I talked about it with him and he said he was jealous. And when I said why he said because you’re always so happy to see him and you guys get along so well and are always doing stuff together and you don't do that with me.
And I have to say I do like my friend but not in that way. And it’s very true I get along so much better with my friend and I feel like I really only get along with my boyfriend when we are just one and one. I can't play around with him the same way. But I still don't like my friend that way. But my problem is I don't feel overly joyed to be with him and I don't know what I want.