chelsieconti
Jun 25, 2012, 10:10 AM
Please please don't juge me... First I have been pressured into having sex before but a cuple of different people they put so much pressure on me that it scared me the way they were acting and putting there hands on me I believed I would be hurt if I did not give in.. I felt like a slut for giving in.. anyway I met this guy It was love at first sight but I was afraid of sex... when the time came that he wanted to have sex he started kissing my neck and I started crying.. I liked him so much but the thought of all those other guys who had acted the way they did was just stuck in my head.. anyway I ended up telling him I was raped.. I don't know why I did it but I also said it was my step dad who did it ( my stepdad would watch me in the shower and would always make remarks about my boobs and butt.. he never raped me though.. I don't kknow why I said he did.. maybe I was afraid of him leaving me because he thought I was a slut.. point is I ended up getting married to this guy and he is the love of my life.. but I really want to tell him the truth.. but he will leave I know that he will that's just how he is.. I messed up so bad I don't know what to do. I fell like a horrible person... I need help.. I don't lie often I don't know why I did this someone please help me :(