nycgirl
Feb 28, 2007, 02:02 PM
I just got engaged, however, am not as happy as other people think I would be. He wants to get married very soon, but I am not very sure. What has been haunting me was some affair he had with a girl a couple of months before he proposed to me. As he said, they met before he and I met. He liked her but did not make any move because she herself was in a relationship. He then met and fell madly in love with me. Both of us are considered good looking and successful, and we both have very strong personality. We have quite some fights during our relationship. According to him, that girl still kept calling her even after he told her that he did not want to have any contact with her because he already had me. Then after all those fights, he told her and she comforted him. Later he claimed those conversation had nothing beyond just friendship. I caught him up twice that he went out to call this girl and he told me he just went out to do some grocery shopping. I felt I was cheated because I knew all his other female friends but never heard about this girl. I had a big fight with him because he called her on my back in excuse of going out to shop or whatever. We did not completely end up that relationship though but did not have contact for two weeks. He called or emailed, I did not answer. Then one day after his another email, we went out for dinner together to talk. I told him how disappointed I was, and he also felt that I lost trust on him. A couple of days later he expressed his concern that I would never be able to trust him any more. Then he said something sort of like being just friends for some time. Three days later, I was going to visit a friend who lives very close to him. I stopped by his house, and happened to see that girl came to visit him and stayed there over night. He told me they did not have sex and they slept in separate rooms. I later found out that that girl came to visit him after a couple of our fights. I still do not know if I should trust what he said that they never had sex. He then let the girl go back home that day, and had lunch with me that day and night. A week later, he wanted to get back with me. He said sometimes he was pushed over to that girl by our fights because he did not feel very promising with our relationship. But he would like to start over. I told him that if he promised never contact her again, I could give it a try. We then got back together, but at the beginning he admitted that they still had some sparse contact, but then stopped it as he said. He proposed about two months after this affair.
This thing just happened about three months ago, and I can not just forget it. I do not know if I will ever. Also, like last week, we were on vacation, and he got an "unknown " call. I asked who that was, and he said he did not know. I then reacted as if it were her calling. I have never been hurt like this in any relationship. He apologized and also said he thought our relationship was over during that time. However, I had a hard time understanding why he kept those secret calls for months, and had never let me know that girl visited him after some of our fights. Is that really just that girl's fault?
My question to you guys is: Should I trust him again? Some people said we were still supposed to have freedom to know other people before engagement, but to me, having an intimate relationship is also very serious and exclusive too. I am very puzzled. I like him and said yes to his proposal. However, I am actually not sure if I should marry him.
This thought has been haunting me for a long time, and so far I have not had a good solution yet. Hope I can seek some wisdom and advice here. Thanks in advance!
This thing just happened about three months ago, and I can not just forget it. I do not know if I will ever. Also, like last week, we were on vacation, and he got an "unknown " call. I asked who that was, and he said he did not know. I then reacted as if it were her calling. I have never been hurt like this in any relationship. He apologized and also said he thought our relationship was over during that time. However, I had a hard time understanding why he kept those secret calls for months, and had never let me know that girl visited him after some of our fights. Is that really just that girl's fault?
My question to you guys is: Should I trust him again? Some people said we were still supposed to have freedom to know other people before engagement, but to me, having an intimate relationship is also very serious and exclusive too. I am very puzzled. I like him and said yes to his proposal. However, I am actually not sure if I should marry him.
This thought has been haunting me for a long time, and so far I have not had a good solution yet. Hope I can seek some wisdom and advice here. Thanks in advance!