On April 27 2012 my papa went to the doctors and he got told he was fine.On April 28 at 4:20pm her died of a hartattck on my front porch and I've tried everything like not going out front or litening to the song he likes.. Im only 12 and I have 2 million things todo so I don't have time to think about him.. today is fathersday every fathersday me and him would talk and talk and I would think of him as my daddy but now he is gone I don't know why I'm still living.I was just wandering if it ever gets better??

Yes, it gets better. Everyone grieves in his or her own way, in whatever time frame he/she needs. What does I would think of him as my daddy mean? He's was not your father? Something else?

This is a very recent loss. I'm sorry.

Father's days can be very difficult for children who have lost their father (same for mother's days).

But yes it does get better. Spend the day remembering the good times not what you miss.

By "Papa" do you mean your grandfather?
Believe it or not, yes it will get better.
Fathers' Day was special for you two, so naturally today will be a tough day.
You need to grieve in your own way, whether that be a good cry or talking to a family member or friend about your memories with him, or go to a special spot that you two had and just think of him. What ever works for you.
I am sorry for your loss, but in time it will get easier.

By "Papa" do you mean your grandfather?
Believe it or not, yes it will get better.
Fathers' Day was special for you two, so naturally today will be a tough day.
You need to grieve in your own way, whether that be a good cry or talking to a family member or friend about your memories with him, or go to a special spot that you two had and just think of him. What ever works for you.
I am sorry for your loss, but in time it will get easier.
Yes I do