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shalz
Jun 7, 2012, 08:23 AM
I am 32 years old married with 2 kids
I love my family but I committed adultry one year back
My husband found out and asked me and I told him the truth after lying for sometime
Now he doesn't trust me that I cheated only once and thinks that the fling lasted for a longer period than 10 to 15 days
I tried committing suicide by taking zolfresh tablets but was saved
I look at my husband and see the pain he is going through because he has always loved me unconditionally
I love him too and even though it was just one physical encounter I feel terrible
I did have this encounter only for fun sake not because I wanted to be in a new relationship
I did it only because a lot of people around me are doing it
I feel horrible even though I have fold my husband everhthing and am not hidding but he doesn't trjst me any more and its killing me
My husbad has not laughed since over a year and his business has dropped
He used go call me his pride and now he is demoralised
I committed suicide out of shame and also because he was not believing that I slept with this guy only once
I coyld not prove myself andwas feeling helpless so I tried to die
I feel so helpless and so guilty for cheating on him and my two toddler kids
I hate myself for this and wish I could erase this incident
I love my husband and want everything to be the same

smoothy
Jun 7, 2012, 08:34 AM
i am 32 years old married with 2 kids
i love my family but i committed adultry one year back
my husband found out and asked me and i told him the truth after lying for sometime
now he doesnt trust me that i cheated only once and thinks that the fling lasted for a longer period than 10 to 15 days
i tried commiting suicide by taking zolfresh tablets but was saved
i look at my husband and see the pain he is going thru because he has always loved me unconditionally
i love him too and even though it was just one physical encounter i feel terrible
I did have this encounter only for fun sake not because i wanted to be in a new relationship
i did it only because a lot of people around me are doing it
i feel horrible even though i have fold my husband everhthing and am not hidding but he doesnt trjst me any more and its killing me
my husbad has not laughed since over a year and his business has dropped
he used go call me his pride and now he is demoralised
i commited suicide out of shame and also because he was not believing that i slept with this guy only once
i coyld not prove myself andwas feeling helpless so i tried to die
i feel so helpless and so guilty for cheating on him and my two toddler kids
i hate myself for this and wish i could erase this incident
i love my husband and want everything to be the same

Only time will tell... many people can eventually get past this... but it takes time... a few never will.

Trust takes time and has to be earned once its lost.

Perhaps counseling is in order and may help ease this.