Emma_ox
Jun 6, 2012, 12:31 AM
Hi. Basically I am a 20 year old nursing student in my second year. I have recently come back from a weeks holiday in Egypt were I suffered quite badly with dehydration on the last day, for some reaosn this has set my anxiety off! This has made university a really big struggle for me this year. I absolutely dred going into my lectures in case I have a panic attack, I don't feel asthough I'm getting much support from my friends at uni either. Every time I take a day off I get aload of questions as to why I haven't come in which makes me feel worse. I don't even want to know what my attendance is. Were only really allowed to have 10 days of for the whole year maximum! But I have definitely taken more than 10 days. The more days I miss the worse I feel, as I just know I'm going to be kicked of the course. I have actually informed my teachers at university of how I've been feeling, and they have been quite supportive. However, there's only so much they can do for me. I don't want to fail as I don't want my family to be disapointed in me. I feel asthough this is my future I'm ruining. Not only that, I have placement at the end of this month and I don't feel asthough ill be able to face going in. On placement you can sometimes see quite stressfull things and I don't feel like I can face it! Ive even wondered if nursing is the right career path for me, or if I'm only thinking this because of how I'm feeling at the moment. I just don't feel happy or myself at the moment, I'm really scared I'm going to ruin everything. I haven't told my parents yet as I don't even know were id start, and theyd probably think I was being silly. I feel like such a failure at the moment, and I'm getting angry at myself for how I'm feeling because its just not me at all, and I can't seem to pull myself out of it.
Advice needed!!
Advice needed!!