Help!! Please

We all feel lost at different levels and in different ways, If the person is evil and hateful, you may hate that anyone dies, but be sort of glad this person is gone. But for many, even people we like, often we don't know how to deal with death and for a while may feel nothing, for some the real loss comes latter, for some, they never face or deal with it.

Are you on any anti depressants as they will affect how you feel even with sad emotions? When my father in law and mother in law passed away I was on those medications and did not feel as much grief as when my sister in law passed and I was off the medication. I loved all of these people and learned to accept it had my level of grief had nothing to do with how much I loved each one.