sulakshmandutta
Jun 2, 2012, 04:08 AM
I'm in Love with my GF for the last 3 years. On the very first day when we met we started liking each other, there was a like factor in between us. After few days when I proposed her, she told me that she can't accept me as she is in a relationship. But we started to catch up as a friends. Finally 2 months ago, one day she calls me up and told that "She wants to take our friendship one step ahead, She Loves Me" and she had finished with her ex, as I also know that she was not too much happy with her ex. Finally I was very happy and we are enjoying & started to thinking of our future.
But sometimes I feel that for some very small issue also she reacts too much and gets angry with me. Started blaming me, shout on me, even stop talking with me. Every time I had to take initiative to make the situation normal.
Finally last night she told me that she still in love with her ex from her heart, she had not forgot him, even after so many things she can't hate him. She is trying to forget him but never admitted that she loves me rather she told that she likes me a lot and never wanted to lose me. Even she told me that she had met him two weeks ago to return all the gifts she got from her ex and spend time with him, and she is worried of him as few days ago he got some illness and due to that he was not looking fit and fine.
She told me may be she can't love me so much as her ex, she had lost all the freshness in her love, she can't accept me or love me solely as her previous. All the doors of her heart had closed, still she wants to stay with me.
As I was very much jealous and angry of the situation, when I told her not to again get contacted with her ex, she told me she misses him a lot till yet, can't resist her from to be with her ex whenever he calls her up. She also asked me that, can she meet that guy as a friend? I was very angry at that moment, finally she told me that please don't do anything like calling that guy or anything, and promised that she will never meet that guy again.
But I know she still loves him a lot and now she is not happy. But I love her very much, I can't think losing her. I'm trying to console her with various thing now. But I doubt may be she can again lie me to meet him as she and that guy from same place and I'm very far from there.
Now what should I do?
Will she get change with time?
Can she also loves me?
Or all I'm doing is just wastage of time?
How should I know, what she wants?
I fear someday that guy comes back and tried to get back her, will she leave me?
Please suggest me as I can't think more, I'm very much confused, there are no one with whom I can share my feelings. Please.. If there is any way to get her completely please give me those ideas. Above all I still love her very much, she is my first love.
But sometimes I feel that for some very small issue also she reacts too much and gets angry with me. Started blaming me, shout on me, even stop talking with me. Every time I had to take initiative to make the situation normal.
Finally last night she told me that she still in love with her ex from her heart, she had not forgot him, even after so many things she can't hate him. She is trying to forget him but never admitted that she loves me rather she told that she likes me a lot and never wanted to lose me. Even she told me that she had met him two weeks ago to return all the gifts she got from her ex and spend time with him, and she is worried of him as few days ago he got some illness and due to that he was not looking fit and fine.
She told me may be she can't love me so much as her ex, she had lost all the freshness in her love, she can't accept me or love me solely as her previous. All the doors of her heart had closed, still she wants to stay with me.
As I was very much jealous and angry of the situation, when I told her not to again get contacted with her ex, she told me she misses him a lot till yet, can't resist her from to be with her ex whenever he calls her up. She also asked me that, can she meet that guy as a friend? I was very angry at that moment, finally she told me that please don't do anything like calling that guy or anything, and promised that she will never meet that guy again.
But I know she still loves him a lot and now she is not happy. But I love her very much, I can't think losing her. I'm trying to console her with various thing now. But I doubt may be she can again lie me to meet him as she and that guy from same place and I'm very far from there.
Now what should I do?
Will she get change with time?
Can she also loves me?
Or all I'm doing is just wastage of time?
How should I know, what she wants?
I fear someday that guy comes back and tried to get back her, will she leave me?
Please suggest me as I can't think more, I'm very much confused, there are no one with whom I can share my feelings. Please.. If there is any way to get her completely please give me those ideas. Above all I still love her very much, she is my first love.