DNC931
May 24, 2012, 09:47 PM
I am still in love with my first love. I have tried to move on and tried dating other people, which I believe has really gotten me into a messier situation. For example I am dating a guy right now and he is great and we have even talked about marriage and children and the future.. but then my first love pops into my head... this is not the first time. Now he has had a hard life I met him at church camp and it was truly love at first sight. The connection we had was crazy and incredible. ( Our friends have even said the same.) He has told me over and over again that he has never opened up this much to a female before, that even some of the stuff he told me he hadn't even told his best guy friend (which I had confirmed) Those feelings I have not had again.. I have searched for it and tried to settle or find. But even with my current boyfriend those feelings don't occur. We talked on the phone for endless hours he confided in me. I helped him through some extremely tough things and have always been there for him. When things went quiet between us for some reason or other though I've realized that is when I would meet another guy who is sweet and kind and someone I should date but it feels wrong and I feel terrible. He lives about an hour or so away I am 19 years old and I know some may think I am young and naïve but I do know this is not healthy for me. I feel like I need to confront him face to face to deal with it but I feel like it would just backfire or I would screw it up.. Please Please help...