I've been feeling depressed with my life lately and have been thinking if I should see a counsler. First is that I get bullied a lot at school and I feel unwanted. Second I think I have trouble controlling my emotions. Me and my friend were messing around with his soccer ball at our soccer field and his foot slid under mine and I fell face first into the soccer goal post. He was saying like "let me help you" but I got a grey and pushed him down and almost started hitting him. I am also having problems at home. I go home and when I get there I sit on my bed and just want to cry. Sometimes when I get bullied and I'm on the floor cornered in a wall I see people laughing at me. Like I'm worthless and pathetic. I just don't want to be here anymore. I am worrying myself and I just need help and advise.

Have you tried talking to a parent? If things seem so bad then maybe you should talk to someone about it (a counselour) what has happened recently that could make you want to hit your friend? Talk to someone. It helps. :)

Why do you not fight back the bullies like you wanted to fight your friend ?

You will knock your friend down but you get on the floor in a corner from bullies.
Almost always when you stand up to the bullies they will stop bothering you.

It's not the same as with my friend because the people WILL hit me with sticks as hard as they can. And I've tried talking to my parents and they say I need to man up and stop being a wuss

It's not the same as with my friend because the ppl WILL hit me with sticks as hard as they can. And I've tried talking to my parents and they say I need to man up and stop being a wuss

So when you report them to the police what do they do ? If they threaten you with sticks ( do the carry clubs in their hands when they bully you ) or just threaten to do this.

I teach kids every day how to stand up for themselves and have one or more protecting themselves form a bully most likely every week. And in 90 perecent of the cases, the minute they know you are not going to be scared and you would fight back, they will back off or at least leave you alone from then on.

Umm I never said I reported the to the police? And no the sticks are just like whiplike tree branches that fell off.