litogrey89
Apr 28, 2012, 05:48 PM
When I was 16 I was pressured by my 20 year old boyfriend to have his baby or he would dump me. As a result I had a multiple pregnancy that resulted in help syndrome kidney failure permanent heart damage and the death of one twin and our surviving baby to be 2.6 pounds at premie birth. Not to mention the severe depression while I was in ICU for 3 months for the hell pregnancy and fighting for my life. I never got the chance to bond with my child. I never received counceling and grew a hate for my boyfriend because nothing happened to him. My life was forever scarred my baby was dead and my child was a reminder of the worst event of my life. We separated and I became pregnant with my second child and once he was born I knew I could never love my first child the way I so easily loved this child. I feel like a monster, like an embarrassment to god, I know I shouldn't be this way but I do. I was 19 years old depressed and going through a financial hardship I left my child in the care of his father and moved out of state. I now am a student and a single mommy to my 2nd child. I am do doing the best I can and itry to put the past behind me. I am being sued for child support I don't mind it and have kind of wondered if this day would come. But if I'm unemployed, a student and receiving financial aid and child care assistance myself will my case be placed on hold until I get a job?