shj0991
Apr 26, 2012, 10:05 PM
I come from a conservative Korean family. My parents are typical UFOs, I am 21 yrs old and going to an expensive college (With FA though).
I have only recently started living here in US. I have been through a lot of hardships because of my Korean background. I had an identity crisis aka late adolescence, because I did not have any time to think about my life when I was in high school. I just found myself becoming a puppet that grows to feeds money to my expectant parents. I did not know who I am, what I wanted to do, and what I should do. I still probably don't. That mental crisis crashed my GPA and so I decided to take a break from school for an year. Then my father decides to take a sabbatical in US and comes over to take me in for the duration of my break. I needed understanding and life consulting, but to them, I'd committed a horrific crime against their expectations. I was made to feel guilty, I couldn't get any real life consulting, and just made to study ahead for the next classes I'm taking. KOREA THE ONLY WAY TO SOLVE ANYTHING IS STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY. My parents have this extremely ed up materialistic Korean mindset. I do NOT want to live my life like they do. I need to grow up, and studying dry information is not the way.
The current and immediate problem right now is their attitude towards me. I need to recuperate and brace myself for the best performance for my returning semester. But these people don't let me do that. They place extreme regulations on what I do, such as totally banning me from any form of gaming, and getting extremely upset when they find me doing it. They verbally berate and threaten me financially, and furiously hit me. I'm not afraid of getting hit on anymore, and they know this so now they try to blackmail me into submission by threatening me financially. So had no choice but to stop my favorite hobby, and resort to very limited late nights. But now they do unbearable things to me, like sneaking into my room and searching for things to scold. This searching behavior has gone too far. They look into my chat logs on my computer and my cell phone messages. They demand my passwords for skype and Facebook and threaten me that they will post on my friends' walls not to interact with me ever again. If there is even a mention of gaming in the logs, they scold me for hours and hours and this makes me get so furious that I am constantly on the verge of doing something terrible to myself and my family.
I decided that I need to move out because of this. But having lived in the US for only two years, I am daunted at the idea. Having lived a life that was so study oriented that I wasn't even given time to go through my puberty, I am pathetically inept at independence. I still need to complete my remaining two years in school, and somehow start living by myself in a new country. What the hell am I supposed to do now. I want to live a fulfilling life, and I just don't see it with these people.
I have only recently started living here in US. I have been through a lot of hardships because of my Korean background. I had an identity crisis aka late adolescence, because I did not have any time to think about my life when I was in high school. I just found myself becoming a puppet that grows to feeds money to my expectant parents. I did not know who I am, what I wanted to do, and what I should do. I still probably don't. That mental crisis crashed my GPA and so I decided to take a break from school for an year. Then my father decides to take a sabbatical in US and comes over to take me in for the duration of my break. I needed understanding and life consulting, but to them, I'd committed a horrific crime against their expectations. I was made to feel guilty, I couldn't get any real life consulting, and just made to study ahead for the next classes I'm taking. KOREA THE ONLY WAY TO SOLVE ANYTHING IS STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY. My parents have this extremely ed up materialistic Korean mindset. I do NOT want to live my life like they do. I need to grow up, and studying dry information is not the way.
The current and immediate problem right now is their attitude towards me. I need to recuperate and brace myself for the best performance for my returning semester. But these people don't let me do that. They place extreme regulations on what I do, such as totally banning me from any form of gaming, and getting extremely upset when they find me doing it. They verbally berate and threaten me financially, and furiously hit me. I'm not afraid of getting hit on anymore, and they know this so now they try to blackmail me into submission by threatening me financially. So had no choice but to stop my favorite hobby, and resort to very limited late nights. But now they do unbearable things to me, like sneaking into my room and searching for things to scold. This searching behavior has gone too far. They look into my chat logs on my computer and my cell phone messages. They demand my passwords for skype and Facebook and threaten me that they will post on my friends' walls not to interact with me ever again. If there is even a mention of gaming in the logs, they scold me for hours and hours and this makes me get so furious that I am constantly on the verge of doing something terrible to myself and my family.
I decided that I need to move out because of this. But having lived in the US for only two years, I am daunted at the idea. Having lived a life that was so study oriented that I wasn't even given time to go through my puberty, I am pathetically inept at independence. I still need to complete my remaining two years in school, and somehow start living by myself in a new country. What the hell am I supposed to do now. I want to live a fulfilling life, and I just don't see it with these people.