HayleyRogers
Apr 24, 2012, 12:33 AM
I'm an eighteen year old High Schooler. I've been in a steady, wonderful, beautiful relationship of two years with a person I've considered to be completely compatible with me. This has been the very first relationship I've ever had, given that I don't (or didn't?) believe that sharing every part of you (except sexually, so far) could be given to more than one person in your lifetime.
Now, here's where the contradiction comes in; Every day for the last two years I've sat next to one guy, whom I have grown a friendship with that is beyond compare to any other one I've ever had. He's not a person that would be in a monogamous relationship, and I don't even know if he'd be willing to be in a relationship with me. For a very long time my amorous feelings have been intensifying, and the tension between us is heartbreaking, the more so for me, because of my current relationship. I feel two different things at the possibility of a relationship of this kind, joy and misery. Joy, because he's a marvelous person, flaws and all, and misery because that would mean either lying to my current and very supportive boyfriend, or leaving him. Leaving him would hurt, but so would not doing something about my other love. What the HELL do I do?
Now, here's where the contradiction comes in; Every day for the last two years I've sat next to one guy, whom I have grown a friendship with that is beyond compare to any other one I've ever had. He's not a person that would be in a monogamous relationship, and I don't even know if he'd be willing to be in a relationship with me. For a very long time my amorous feelings have been intensifying, and the tension between us is heartbreaking, the more so for me, because of my current relationship. I feel two different things at the possibility of a relationship of this kind, joy and misery. Joy, because he's a marvelous person, flaws and all, and misery because that would mean either lying to my current and very supportive boyfriend, or leaving him. Leaving him would hurt, but so would not doing something about my other love. What the HELL do I do?